cleaning my room in preparation for my dad's arrival and it is really difficult to throw things away when you are a low-key hoarder?

like, in theory, yes, I could just buy new bubble wrap or tissue paper on the off chance that I need some in the future

but also, this slightly used wrap and paper is right here? it's fine? shouldn't I keep it?

or all these small cardboard boxes? or the half-eaten box of fancy marshmallows that were best by August 2015?

or the headphones I got replaced since they don't work, but what if I kept them anyway? or the eight thousand earbud pads that don't fit in my ears but throwing them out would be a waste?

or every rubber band or twist tie that's ever been in my house? what if I needed it someday...?

(I am making my roommate give yea or nay on the things I would tell other people to throw away since they are trash)

(I am keeping a lot of the bubble wrap anyway, but at least I recognize the problem)

I also have put things on my walls for the first time since I lived in tokyo

incidentally, they are the same things I put on my walls in Tokyo

third year in, I guess I can decorate...sortof...

I was hoping to get curtains since there is both light leakage and temperature leakage through the window in my room but buying a double curtain rod is expensive and curtains are also expensive and also I'm a little too short to get them high enough! Maybe I can con Dad and/or Pierre into taking care of it while they are here :')

Anyway, I guess things are as tidy as they're gonna get and I've tossed as many things as my poor heart can stand, so I probably should get back to freelance work...sigh

...........I'm sorry my life is real boring; sometimes the existential crises are about legit things and other times they're just about how could I possibly throw away a perfectly good paperclip

Ah the pain of tossing borderline useless items