Cherry
I AM HOME NOW SO give me character questions!
fuckweasel
katherinE!! 11 16 18 20 25 29 33 42 44 sorry for the wall but also i'm not
Cherry
lmao it's okay! My plans for my free time today have fallen through anyway
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11. In what situation was your character the most afraid they’ve ever been?
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Um. Wow, there's a lot to choose from here!
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For her own life/health/safety, it would definitely be that one moment where the Archdemon was dying, but not dead yet. With that column of light eclipsing everything and her having zero idea of what to watch for if anything re: Morrigan's ritual
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every second, every breath, every heartbeat might be her last. That minute-long sequence probably felt like forever to her.
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(and yes, because of that, because of knowing she could, SHOULD die at any moment, it outstrips the looming threat of the Calling.)
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(even with the broodmother factor)
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For others? Well I guess it kind of evokes the same idea, but it would be the moment Kitty possessed Amalia, but before she'd made a move to attack - because she knew she would. Hell, if you get that result, you've screwed up to the point the game animates your Warden's face appropriately in reaction.
Cherry
like there is no option to assume your character is fine with this outcome.
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close second, the moment between finding out about Anders's disappearance and confirming it.
Cherry
I guess for her the anticipation is almost always worse than the discovery/execution/result, in general.
Cherry
but most of all when she already knows (or has strong reason to think) it won't end well.
fuckweasel
i feel you katherine
Cherry
16. Which does your character idealize most: happiness or success?
Cherry
you mean they
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aren't linked?
Cherry
lmao for most of her life Katherine believed happiness would come from success.
Cherry
If she could just get to a better position in life (read: the Circle), maybe things would be better
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and then everything kind of exploded
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and she somehow got back to the same thing. except in this case she's aiming for success to support something she already has
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I guess in the end the answer to that question is happiness
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thing is, she's using the idea of success to get there
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and then I had a rl thing to attend to, one moment
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okay, rl thing attended to
Cherry
18. Is your character more likely to admire wisdom, or ambition in others?
Cherry
...wow, tough call. The people she admires most have a pretty even spread between them so.
Cherry
If I had to pick just one it would probably be ambition. It used to be wisdom because that's what mattered more before everything went pear-shaped, but then she learned the thing that gets results in the real world is ambition - but maybe not the right results if it's not tempered by wisdom.
Cherry
so it depends on whether she's gauging them by herself or gauging them against herself.
Cherry
if she admires them because they're like her, it's probably their ambition
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if she admires them because they keep her from doing something stupid, definitely wisdom
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...uh
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actually, looking at what she admires most about the people she meets in general, I want to say wisdom wins overall? Because the most valuable thing to her in any new interaction is what she can learn about their stance on life.
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so like
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even people who aren't actually wise have wisdom of their own to offer because they contribute to broadening her horizons further
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man, idk
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tough question
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make of my ramblings what you will
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20. In what ways does your character compare themselves to others? Do they do this for the sake of self-validation, or self-criticism?
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....hahahaha...well
Cherry
she sure does a lot of comparing herself to other people in a projecting kind of way, but the more conscious kind, uh
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mostly it's in terms of morals
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because the way she isolated herself in Circle life saw some pretty stunted social development, and she spent most of the game learning things her childhood should have taught her.
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while she was rebuilding her self-concept throughout the Origins basegame, she really had nobody to reflect against except Alistair and Morrigan (and then later Wynne and Morrigan - there was a great almost meta moment when both of them were in her party and they were the perfect image of the shoulder angel/devil conflict - it was the best thing)
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she has a tendency to gauge herself against other mages before comparing herself to anyone else
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anyway I guess that makes this one also a mix of both, in that constructive way that contributes towards improvement rather than one to the detriment of the other. There's a healthy trait in here somewhere and here it is.
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(though I will say when she self-deprecates it happens very strongly)
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25. How quick is your character to suspect someone else? Does this change if they are close with that person?
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If she's close to them she's almost fucking blind unless they start launching into sudden monologues of villainy
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let's just open with that
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because lol Jowan
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She doesn't let go of suspicion easily if she's been warned or burned
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she still doesn't really trust Jowan, for example
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and never trusted Zevran
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the only person she's suspected with cause and then come to trust is Nathaniel
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But she grew out of mistrusting everyone by default, with help from Alistair. (and a push from Morrigan, who served as an example of what she might become if she kept everyone at arm's length - this kind of ties in to the previous answer, actually)
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like I can't even say that Jowan caused that initial mindset - she didn't trust anyone who wasn't one of her key authority figures (Greagoir and Irving) or Jowan to have innocent intentions. Anyone else wanted to be close to her? Must be a plot somewhere! That or they were mistaken.
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but yeah her adventure changed that
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which is a good thing
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I wasn't even expecting it. I thought she'd rebuff all offers for help and have only mandatory allies for the entire prologue
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getting to be at the wheel as she transformed was pretty magical
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anyway
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33. In the face of criticism, is your character defensive, self-deprecating, or willing to improve? it kind of depends on the criticism!
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In general if it's valid she's willing to improve.
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most of the time though it will be criticism about someone's death
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because Dragon Age
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and that's where self-deprecation happens
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doesn't lock out willingness to improve but she'll beat herself up forever over not being able to save someone if she believes she could have
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criticism that isn't valid, or that she doesn't consider valid (her decision to keep Anora on the throne, for example), she'll defend
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there's a special choice here that straddles the two and that is the matter of Orzammar
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from a whole lot of perspectives, Harrowmont was a mistake
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hell, it was a decision made not out of weighing the options and coming to a conclusion, but out of ignorance
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she saw the two candidates like once each, from afar
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and all she had to go on after that was what the population had to say
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and everything everyone had to say was vague as hell
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so bringing up this one with her gets her kicking herself a lot - but also actively looking for ways to not let down an entire goddamn nation like that again.
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like maybe speaking up about how absurd it is for a total outsider with barely any working knowledge of her own nation to be making decisions for another.
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instead of just shouldering the burden without a word
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so I guess that makes it
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self-deprecation with a purpose?
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anyway it totally depends on what's being criticized.
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and if it needs further thought, she's got regular meditation exercises to come at them with refreshed perspective
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so yeah
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once again it's "do I have to pick one"?
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I think I'm failing at these lmao
fuckweasel
no it's so good when there's enough going on for there not to be a concrete answer
Cherry
42. Has your character ever had a parental figure who was not related to them?
Cherry
Irving. Irving was her father/grandfather idk how removed from direct relation he seemed varied a little, I usually go with grandfather
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and the amount of time he seemed flawless to her was absurd
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it even survived Jowan's threatened Tranquility because at least she could reason that away as "maybe he believes he really can't go through with the Harrowing and this is the only way to not kill him"
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what did it not survive? what finally broke it?
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once again, Anders
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WHAT REASONABLE HUMAN BEING WOULD AGREE TO PUT ANOTHER PERSON IN SOLITARY CONFINEMENT FOR AN ENTIRE YEAR AND WHY DO THEY THINK THAT IS AT ALL APPROPRIATE TO DO TO A MAGE, WHO KIND OF NEED TO BE PSYCHOLOGICALLY FIT FOR THE SAFETY OF EVERYONE AROUND THEM
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...come to think of it, she picked up Clarity not long after that interaction so
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no wonder she needed better meditation techniques
Cherry
it took a lot of willpower to not just go swarm mode, fly back to the Circle, and yell at everyone who proposed and/or signed off on that
Cherry
I imagine she was just silently fuming the rest of the day
Cherry
I mean she still loves the man, she's just. bitter. in part because she never knew. part of that goes back to self-deprecation again, even, because if she had made more attempts to reach out she might have been aware of the repeat escapee and his escalating punishments.
Cherry
but she was content to stay in her little bubble of academic achievement
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now on the other hand there's Wynne, who took the place of the mother she doesn't recall.
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and even then only in the course of the game
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rather than from well before it, like Irving.
Cherry
I think because of that there's more room to allow for her flaws than with Irving. So far none of her shortfalls have had quite the same impact, no matter how much she disagreed.
Cherry
Wynne was kind of...wisdom from both ends, really
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like she's a Circle mage but she also spent a lot of time outside it.
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so she could offer insight from Katherine's own perspective very easily
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And that wasn't really a thing anyone else in the party could give her
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44. How easy or difficult is it for your character to say “I love you?” Can they say it without meaning it?
Cherry
to those she loves most, the words come to her without a second thought
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but it's really tough to get to the point she'll say it without thinking
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because she can't, whatsoever, say it without meaning it
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It's not something she said, really, before her adventure
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because just as a part of her younger self believed she was unworthy of affection from others, so it told her that her own feelings for anyone else were ultimately useless.
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being able to say it to someone else meant she felt that it meant something
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that, you know, it would be appreciated
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and I have another rl thing to deal with so that seems like a good place to end it
Cherry
it was a wall, but I love walls
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and this was a fun one
fuckweasel
i'm so glad
fuckweasel
i had fun hearing the answers :3c
Cherry
I'll ramble about Katherine any day. There's so much development she went through I'm still unpacking it, and I was the one in control of it! So any opportunity to reiterate points or visit them from new angles is A+
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