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[blood bank] SPOILER TALK, DON'T LOOK
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anyway
Leif
like i was saying, when ellie asked pain about why pain never bit him, it kind of seemed like he was willing to be an Art he just
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never really was one, so then he met humpty dumpty and things cascaded from there
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so theoretically, things could have gone differently if pain had acted earlier
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also, for other spoilers, i've been thinking a long time, practially ever since we got One's real name, that there might be a little mermaid theme going on
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since shell is named, well, shell, and those are associated with the ocean
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Ugh yes
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Yes to both things
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I'll come back in here after we are fine with Games but I want
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whenever you're done!
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Pain moving for some reason on Ellie, something to break the ice queen's restraint
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SOMETHING
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then they can be together and be a weird sort of happy family raising shell
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God please
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Maybe something happens to Ellie that makes Pain snap protectively
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okay games are done
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i mean
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the quick answer to that is brutal tries to take him back b/c he's an asshole
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brutal gets pissy about being fucked and takes it out on ellie
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which is stupid b/c what did he think pain was gonna do
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but brutal strikes me as a dumbass so
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yeah
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Pain gets hella fucking pissed which would at least relieve Ellie of feeling like Pain doesn't notice him
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yeah that would at least get him going 'hmmm if pain doesn't hate me or not notice me then why doesn't he treat me like an Art?"
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and either option a; is hella possessive of ellie and does something like lick blood off him where brutal bit or hurt him or something or option b; ellie just realizes from pain getting actually visibly emotional that pain gives some shits
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and yeah is like why? what is pain's deal if he does care but doesn't treat me like an art? what?
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oh my god what if he like, indirectly asks shell and shell's like "HMMMM you know sometimes with my favorite things, i want to keep them safe even if that means i can't touch them anymore, maybe that's what dad thinks of you?"
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god
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I just want. Sort of slow burn but with high drama and Ellie struggling to figure Pain the fuck out because Pain has the worst case of resting bitch face
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and Pain like, trying not to give in to his feelings at all because he doesn't feel anything for a human but fuck anyone who thinks of touching Ellie?
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which lmao confuses ellie more b/c pain gets mad if he talks to certain people but then acts nice later?
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?????
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?????????
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Ellie being confused by Pain
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while Pain is also probably confused by Pain
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why the fuck do I have all these feelings
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but still smiling and being cute b/c he's ellie
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Ellie always being cute and Pain confused by being endeared
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and also trying to like, not... encroach on who Ellie is because phermones and stuff and he just doesn't want to use Ellie that way when the idea genuinely distresses him
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he LIKES seeing Ellie just be himself and be reading and content and Pain's happy(??) with that
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even if he would also really like to fuck Ellie senseless
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i'm giggling imagining him going "why do i feel...warm inside?" and some poor hapless vampire assistant is like "...i think that's happiness, sir"
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Pain standing at a window watching Ellie and Shell just like "...why does my chest feel warm and relaxed? weird"
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I hope for a sassy assistant "that's happiness u loser"
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ellie notices and waves. pain doesn't know what to do with himself so he just glares and walks away
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god he would he'd like, glares menacingly like he's angry at being waved at
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just too awkward to wave back
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I mean I'm reading that part again and like
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he is
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ellie thinks he's probably in trouble for being distracted from shell or something, but pain doesn't say anything about it, just glares some more
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such a loser 
literally his face when he wants to touch Ellie, no wonder Ellie thought Pain gave no shits
literally his face when he wants to touch Ellie, no wonder Ellie thought Pain gave no shits
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lmao right
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he has no idea how to even really ask ellie what he wants, he just. gives him books and goes "take care of my child"
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pain why are you like this
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it actually kind of makes me interested to know about grandpa overlord
Leif
I can only imagine Pain is either naturally the most stoic and pragmatic or like, was raised in a way to entirely lock his heart to like everyone
Leif
also ??? I feel like I got the impression Pain DIDN'T drink from Ellie but maybe I read wrong
also ??? I feel like I got the impression Pain DIDN'T drink from Ellie but maybe I read wrong
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ellie asks him outright why he never did in one of the recent chapters, right???
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and i expect it was how he was raised, based on how he treats shell
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yeah, raised extremely coldly
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also like the implications Pain just kind of stalked Ellie and White and hovered around eavesdropping on them all the time is hilarious
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and also sad
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Pain is a loser
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Oh right yeah okay ellie is asking why pain never drank
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I forgot a lot I was rushing through
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yeah, he says outright in 49 "how come you never drank from me?"
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BUT YEAH APPARENTLY IT RUNS IN THE FAMILY
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i'm like
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crying over how much pain and shell are alike, actually
Leif
PAIN IS SO SAD HONESTLY LIKE looking at these again
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Pain was just raised I assume with zero love
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and shell was raised by Ellie with a lot of love
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or Enough Love
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because even ellie says shell is lonely 
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yeah well that's because Pain probably loves his son too but he's pain
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www.mangago.me/read-manga/blood_bank/mf/c049/13/ This fucking page
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Pain doesn't know how to feel a feeling or what to do with it when he has one
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I assume he just stopped feeling things very young because he was a smart child and that was the best survival mechanism
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that's the page i just fell on the floor crying over
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BUT HE DOES KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH THIS FEELING
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HE KNOWS TO LET ELLIE GO
Leif
so he learned to intrigue and politic and intimidate and have zero interest in like indulgence that wasn't... politically useful? like fucking brutal
Leif
he knows to not bite Ellie or use him as an Art because... he does love him and cannot bring himself to do that to him, and loves him enough to let him go
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my reaction to pain fucking brutal was literally like an "ohhhhhh my goooood" in the tone of me at brunch hearing some juicy gossip with a mimosa in my hand
Leif
but like I don't know if pain knows how to be happy
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i don't think he does
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pain fucking brutal is great
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i think he only knows how to like
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make things work the way he wants them to
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but what he "wants" is not like, happiness
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or care or love
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www.mangago.me/read-manga/blood_bank/mf/c049/15/ too guilty of what blood lords do to every feel worthy of Ellie
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Pain knows how to govern and rule and politic but not like, pursue personal interest
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i mean even the line "live the life you want" on that page is SO RESIGNED because i don't think pain ever allowed himself to do that
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so he could only let ellie
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I wonder if pain had any dreams of a life he wanted
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as a kid did he have interests and things he loved
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when he first showed up i never had a single inkling that i would have Feelings over pain overlord
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i want my time and life back
Leif
PAIN!!!
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how dare you
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but then he sees this Ellie kid and Ellie is pure and enjoys books and seems kind to everyone and like
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is not scheming about anything or sort of twisted like it seems most arts get
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he just wants to read
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and he's nervous of pain like everyone is but he's still nice and cheerful and genuine
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and everything Pain could never be himself
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and makes shell happy
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genuinely curious about why vampires and humans have differences
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and Pain's there like
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I participate in the knowing culling of your kind every year
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I drink human blood
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I ruthlessly do whatever it takes to further the Overlord interests
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I probably have never hugged my son in my life
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does pain know what a hug is
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he
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kind of hugged ellie???
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that isn't like lemme wrap arms around you to drink you
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A REAL HUG MELLY
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i think he can figure it out since it's kind of the same as that
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Pain isn't a good person and he knows it but
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I bet he wants to be for Ellie
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he wishes he was for ellie
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he never regretted a thing until then
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and like
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He wants to be worthy of Ellie but he's not so it's better Ellie found someone good
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that scene with him and shell and the arts he brings in is now like, 500000xs worse
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yes
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because honestly i think he's trying to prevent shell from having the same pain he did?
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it's an asshole move but he's kind of
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doing it out of love
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an asshole move but trying to harden his son to any like, feelings that might hurt him
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too bad Pain
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TOO BAD
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HE ALREADY CAUGHT FEELINGS
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this makes me hopeful that like, pain will find out who eric is and then put all the pieces together and help them
Leif
god if Pain were a truly cute child with squishy insides that just quickly learned not to feelings
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listen
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he made shell
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so there has to be something soft in there somewhere
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someone that cute just doesn't pop out of stone cold bastard dna
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I mean he is soft inside at least about Ellie and Shell
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honestly even if Ellie and Shell don't ever get to see it
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he loves them so much?
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god I bet
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he was upset about human culling,a nd I bet he like, if he let himself feel he doesn't like a lot of things
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but he's effective at just shutting down and looking bored and disdainful instead of showing any feelings
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i really, really hope we get to see more of his past because i expect a LOT of what he does and says to shell is out of a desire for shell to never experience the same kind of, ah, re-education he might have had
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yeah
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same
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I need more about pain
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i need more about EVERYONE like, white seemed p sure brutal wouldn't kill her b/c she was the heir so
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why is brutal such a dumbass
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but I just want a combination of Ellie figuring out Pain cares SO much and Pain being forced to show it for Ellie in an au
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no white knew he'd kill her
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what he did to humpty dumpty, and white, and just. everything he does is so dumb.
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she told Ellie he wouldn't than thought to herself "yeah of course he'll kill me"
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"He's that dumb"
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like buddy, it's not just the hormones that make pain better than you
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"My father's an idiot arrogant brute"
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*pheromones
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wow, i need some caffeine
Leif
brutal is awful
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I'm glad pain doms the fuck out of him and makes him furious about it
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i'm soooo glad about that
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i'm soooo glad vampires are like, rabbits and lions and other animals that hump each other to display dominance
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i also hope we see other vampire lords
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White was like 90% sure she was gonna die
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oh, here's a case of me speed reading
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it's real hard not to zip through this
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because it's so good
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yeah
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white's so cool though i'm mad we don't get much of her
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same
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I hope one gets to kill grandad
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ME TOO
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i hope one almost kills pain and then pain's like "...ellie?"
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god
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I do want one's childhood
Leif
but we can psl with headcanon about him being soft and kind and quickly taught out of it
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yes lets
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until proven otherwise
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also I just registered that White's body is what fed the rose garden
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y e p
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one clutching the skull murdered me
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yes
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I'm gonna sleep but we should do this cute pain/ellie PSL, start on a dramatic note with Ellie getting harassed
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yes yes! I'll look to getting/making icons tomorrow
Leif
okay I'm awake and settled and thinking of usernames
Leif
I thirst for this psl
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i had already thought up ellie and shell usernames because i just thirst in general for blood bank stuff
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I'm lazy about usernames but also thirsty
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MELLY I am making icons lets do this thing whenever you are down
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\my dad called and won't stop talking but Soon
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oh no
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I have a journal and icons and I am here for things tomorrow if you wish! we wanted the AU to start with Ellie being bullied?
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OH YES sorry my dad called and i got completely derailed for the rest of the night so icons must wait, but yeah, ellie being bullied, or even pain just having dragged him away from that
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whatever works
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Two hours of parental conversation definitely sounds trying
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Maybe start right at intervention, would be cute
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sounds like a plan then o7
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OKAY I have started a couple psls I'm working on another now did you want to start this one or shall I just start with Pain being Mad
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You can start! I still got a few icons to make
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this is without even a glance over for typos so I apologize but I must raid
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tell me if anything needs changing
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it looks good to me! I'll get to it in a bit