[2017 resolutions I guess?] man so there was this excuse generator (as a joke) on Facebook where ya plug in your birthday for a random combo

Everyone got really funny things and I was disappointed bc mine was

"Hey, fuck you, buddy. *points at crotch*"

And I was bummed cos it wasnt that funny but then again, I was like you know what maybe I SHOULD start doing that

(Not literally)

I am the kind of person who if... I guess any time I'm worried about disappointigg someone I have to explain myself

But this kind of just leads to people taking advantage of me or thinking I'm this or that or the other or trying to avoid responsibility for things

So maybe like a metaphorical "fuck you i cant always perform to your perfect standards so suck it" is what I need to embrace

Can't always go out and have fun, can't always put work before my health

I'm too apologetic and maybe it's time to stop being a people pleaser

I can't BE everything for everyone so I have got to stop taking responsibility for things that aren't mine