Thyme_Traveler
cried so hard I gave myself a headache. haven't done that in a while.
Alterz
): what happened?
Thyme_Traveler
it's kinda silly, but Carrie Fisher dying hit me really hard, y'know? I've never met her, I wasn't connected to her personally...
Thyme_Traveler
I've always kind of associated her with my mom, because my mom reminded me of princess Leia when I was a kid.
Thyme_Traveler
it's the death of a well-loved hero
Alterz
Does it make you feel better to know that you are the third person today who've I've heard say they cried for her? None of them were personally connected to her either.
Thyme_Traveler
and dammit, I'm crying again.
Alterz
That doesn't seem silly to me at all.
Alterz
/hugs
Thyme_Traveler
yeah, it does help. /hugs
Thyme_Traveler
I guess there's a lot of feelings tied up for me in this.
Thyme_Traveler
I mean I love Star Wars, but that's not all she was. and I wasn't aware of her position as a champion of mental health awareness until the last year or so.
Thyme_Traveler
it's... I'm just... so upset that I didn't get to meet her
Thyme_Traveler
in my defense, I'm pretty sure shark week is threatening the horizon, so I'm always slightly more weepy the week before.
Alterz
IDK, again, that all seems really reasonable to me? She was a personal hero for you and the sort of person you wanted to meet, and she's gone, and it's completely natural to mourn over that.
Alterz
You don't need shark week to explain being sad.
Thyme_Traveler
thank you.
Thyme_Traveler
I've had to defend my feelings to people in the past, it's a hard habit to break.
Alterz
Naw man, I getcha, I kinda figured that was part of the reason.
Alterz
But as far as I'm concerned, life is too short to spend time interrogating people on whether they're feeling the Right Feelings or not, it literally helps nothing.
Alterz
If you're sad then you're legit sad, and you shouldn't have to prove that to someone while also dealing with being sad.
Thyme_Traveler
thank you, thank you. the mourning people I really wanted to meet thing has happened a lot
Alterz
It's a shit feeling, I'm sorry that (if I'm correctly reading that sentence) Fisher is just the latest one ):
Thyme_Traveler
yeah. I mean , this is a thing going back years. people I never got to know or meet in person.
Alterz
IDK if you have this but for me I always realize they were a person I would've liked to meet after they die and it's like "oh. well then."
Thyme_Traveler
so many cool, wonderful people died when I was so little. my little history major heart beat strong and early.
Alterz
There's too many cool people in the world who are all far away, basically?
Thyme_Traveler
my aunt Diane, my great grandma
Alterz
Aw ):
Thyme_Traveler
yep.
Alterz
Lo siento. /more hugs
Thyme_Traveler
/always more hugs
Alterz
There's not much I can really say, 'cause it's just kind of a shitty situation and in person mostly I'd just be nodding and making sympathetic noises? But know that I'm here for you in spirit, at least.
Alterz
Even if the text is mostly just me being like ): repeatedly.
Alterz
): is the sympathetic noises of text messages
Thyme_Traveler
sympathetic noises help, because there's not a lot to be done.
Alterz
Yup.
Alterz
):
Thyme_Traveler
and I really, really appreciate this, Manny
Thyme_Traveler
Alterz
I don't have a fancy hug icon so [insert hug icon here]
Thyme_Traveler
very much appreciated. :')
Alterz
Yeah, bud, any time. I don't like leaving people to be sad by themselves. Even if that just means making slightly dumb supportive comments in hopes of successfully lifting the mood slightly.
Thyme_Traveler
Alterz
yaaaaay
Thyme_Traveler
I'm a bit better, probs gonna be mulling over this one for a while though.
Thyme_Traveler
also, I need a sleep. going to Writing tomorrow?
Alterz
Understandable. Grieving comes in waves, in my experience. Just let yourself be sad for awhile.
Alterz
Not sure if I'm going to writing yet, we'll see how much of the rampant housework I get done. I'd like to, though.
Alterz
Sleep good, if nothing else it will help with the headache. Probably also drink some water before you lay down?
Thyme_Traveler
cool, Binta and I were planning to be there if nothing else.
Alterz
Sweet, hopefully I can join you guys.
Thyme_Traveler
yeah, gonna get that glass of water.
Alterz
Good good =)
TheQuietOne
mzminola
/hugs/
Charlie
/hugsss
Thyme_Traveler
I love everyone and everything in this bar.
TheQuietOne
Everyone and everything in this bar loves you too