zero reblogged a really good undertale article on tumblr (and bird shared it here) and im still crying good fucking bye
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zero reblogged a really good undertale article on tumblr (and bird shared it here) and im still crying good fucking bye
zero reblogged a really good undertale article on tumblr (and bird shared it here) and im still crying good fucking bye
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I was fine until the "Because Undertale posits that life is wonderful." line and i'm still just. lying here. on fire
нalғ-dooмed.
ISN'T IT SO GOOD
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before i continue here's the article for those who haven't seen
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IT IS AND IM ABOUT TO EMOTIONS VOMIT OVER IT
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bc I remember when I finished Undertale for the first time, sometime... last October or early November, I'm not quite certain, it was after NYCC sometime. I was sitting across the couch from my roommate
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who I had wanted to play for the novelty of it but I knew she wouldn't get the connection I did, but when I finished the true pacifist end, I was crying as the credits rolled
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and she asked me "well? what do you think?"
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and all I could stumble out at the time was "God, I wish I had this 10 years ago."
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because what I wouldn't have given to have Undertale when I was 12 and alone and my mom was an alcoholic and my dad wasn't there and I found a switchblade in the front yard and kept it in my back pocket.
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what I would not have given to have this narrative and a cast of friends and the idea that ultimately, life is wonderful. that someone will always come and find you.
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that when you're at your most lost, and sad, and alone, there is always a reason to keep going. there is always some determination left. to live.
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and y'know! it's been a long time since I've felt that bad and I've read a lot of depression and mental illness narratives in the meantime but I've never seen one previous to Undertale where it's kids.
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where what was happening to the main characters, with depression and suicide and the world on your shoulders, was happening to a character that was my age at the time I considered those heavy options.
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and like... whenever I'm feeling really down, nowadays. When I'm tired and angry and just trying to get home and go to bed after a bad day
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I end up playing the Undertale theme. Because... the best way I can describe it is that it makes me want to live.
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It makes me feel like walking home from work, seeing the sunset, the way wind brushes against your cheek and how you can feel sunlight. It makes the most mundane parts of life worth living.
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like Undertale has done something a video game has never done for me, and made me hope for the ending after the "happy ending" of the game.
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It's made me realize I went through the fight and came out the other side and that every day past that is a gift. That you fought and hurt and suffered for an ultimately mundane existence. But that's okay.
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Because what you were fighting for was normalcy. Was to be able to go home tired and talk to your friends and feel love. And that's always what was important.
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I'm back to crying a little again lmao so I'm gonna. stop gushing and I probably should've locked this but OH WELL
нalғ-dooмed.
NO don't worry buddy i'm so glad
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anyway. Undertale means a lot to me. I'm glad it exists. I'm glad it helped a lot of people in similar ways. And, bit by bit, it makes my old traumas feel better.
нalғ-dooмed.
it's so easy for video games to be edgy and dark and sad because more often or not the central mechanic is killing everyone
нalғ-dooмed.
undertale takes that and says despite everything, despite suffering, despite injustice and pain and sadness, there is always still hope
нalғ-dooмed.
you can have courage and you can be kind and you can be merciful and things will turn out okay
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yeah. that there's always a reason to hope for something better, you know?
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as a sidenote: I always end up listening to this remix a lot too when I want to feel like my mundane life is worth it
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it's probably my favorite remix this fandom has made haha
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sob even now I'm kind of getting chills and listening to it as I try to answer my work emails. god. i am such a sap.
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semi-related but this is probably why I made my Shep so much like this l m a o I am. so much that person
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of "hey kid life sucks and I was like you when I was young too but look!!! im still alive!!! that counts for something"
нalғ-dooмed.
ahhhh this remix is so good
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I KNOW it's my favorite i just... i luv
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honestly thinking back on this i bet this is why i love magical girl shows so much lmao
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that things will come out okay through the power of love and friendship and believing in those who care about you
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I'm having feels
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let's all sit here on the feelings pile
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This article just
ash hole
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YEAH