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mmfft. with the way rp is spread out now across multiple games and psls it just sometimes feels super...lonely
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like, if you're not part of a certain thing going on in your game(s), or if everyone you play with is excited about doing things (WHICH, GOOD FOR THEM, THAT'S AWESOME!!) but it isn't with you
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there's this super strong sense of feeling like you don't fit in
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AND PART OF IT REALLY IS JUST
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all of us are busier now than we used to be, and we're all doing different things and interests are more widespread
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and without a single game (or two) really linking everyone together and lj communities and what not
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there's not really ways to kind of... keep up? I guess?
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but at least for me, personally
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there are super strong waves of times when I'm just like IF I VANISH FROM THE INTERNET NO ONE WOULD NOTICE because I'm not into what other people are into
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and I'm pretty sure I'm not the only one with this sort of feel?
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and when people you used to talk to regularly just kidn of drift...
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even if you're still friends and chat occasionally
Mystery Date
I understand this
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it feels like you're doing the... uh. that plurk emote with the grabby hands you can only get on mobile
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(app-ground) this one
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"please come back to me and talk to me and remember I exist"
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anddd sometimes it's just like "how long should I go before I poke someone for a tag back/assume a thread has been dropped"
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or "how many times should our threads be dropped before I just stop poking them to play with me since it seems like I'm not who they want to play with"
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insecurities like that that've always been around but I think just hit much harder these days
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since there's also much less reassurance from other threads/things going on
MOVED
sits on....
𝖉𝖗𝖊𝖆𝖒𝖎𝖓𝖌*⛥*゚・。*
y-yes you are not alone in this feel ...
MOVED2ADUSTUS
Eats pie
noah may cry
eats pie, but gently
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HI GUYS
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mostly I am just. musing on things I've felt for a while AND I THINK OTHER PEOPLE GET IT TOO
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but yeah, a lot of RP is now very individual, I feel
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which kind of sucks
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at least it is if you're not part of the cast(s) that are super trendy at the moment/the group that is super Doing Things/the CR that is super Well Established
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AND EVERYONE STARTS OUT SOMEWHERE but it can still be very frustrating and lonely and sad feeling
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mostly I miss the way I felt wanted/welcomed/RELEVANT IN PEOPLE'S LIVES--...
PHONY
this is a real feel :-(
Cher
I used to feel this a lot before I left cfud, so I think that's why I started investing so much more time in my irl social life
(at)bloodfort
i know this feel ...
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hugs for everyone :-(
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I'm sorry I didn't mean to make people sad
terravesty
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