yeah, yeah, it really DOES seem reasonable? like. he can't spend his whole life playing the weasel. and he probably really-actually thought he was close to having that club. +he KNEW people actually knew his
name around and even outside of Atlantic City, which was something for Mickey 'i picked up my shit around the age of 30 and made a new name for myself... uh literally' Doyle
who, like you said, knows VERY FUCKING WELL how difficult it can be to start over. and probably doesn't want to go back to playing five different sides at a time. because he knows how perilous that shit is...
like, comparatively? sticking with Thompson's almost a safer option. at least he's part of a specific network. and at least he knows that however much shit Nucky gives him, he's worked his way to being a
valuable asset (if not an asset that's given particularly square treatment). and you gotta know he feels good being NEAR the top. like. this is as close as he's come to making it. and as long as he stays
in Atlantic City? it almost looks as if he has made it. because within the city, he's got a kind of power that comes from Nucky's name and oh god i'm rambling i'm sorry
also like once he lost the gang, he legitimately spent about 14 years in Philly just to get approximately nowhere so 12ish years in AC, during which he saw himself actually climbing the ladder? not so bad.
he wants both and he's never actually known how to keep either. and there's that whole thing where he's. basically always at least a little convinced that Aramat's going to leave him. like no matter what
oh, god yeah. forced to confront all of that. which is probably especially fun when you're with people who want to get the shit over with and think you should too
i mean, you obviously still have some semblance of a heart so, y'know. do try to use it for looking outside of yerself. which is probably difficult. but. still.
You know, attaching a highly empathetic beast of hell to a woman whose had most of her life being kicked around by other people and takes personal losses HARD.
It's also why Isolde is so gung-ho about Mickey's death not being such a big deal. Because, lady, you have a house, and a good chunk of money. The girls can move to Savannah, your life is not over.
man Mickey heard the way Manny talks about Emma and was like "nahhhh you're pulling my leg people aren't like that together that's like a thing in the pictures" and then oh hey
it's actually probably one of the reasons he eventually lets it slip to Manny. because maybe he won't buy it, but... maybe yeah? (also because there's that part of him that continues to want to actually
Also, I think Manny would respect him more if he would stop gushing out her and giving him all the tidbits about her that are fucking unnecessary and I don't wanna know sometimes.
Mickey has never, never known how to actually gain Manny's respect. i mean, he has a little bit of it. enough that Manny'll keep working with him. but not all that much.
+he KNEW people actually knew his
and probably doesn't want to go back to playing five different sides at a time.
because he knows how perilous that shit is...
and you gotta know he feels good being NEAR the top. like. this is as close as he's come to making it. and as long as he stays
and oh god i'm rambling i'm sorry
once he lost the gang, he legitimately spent about 14 years in Philly just to get approximately nowhere
so 12ish years in AC, during which he saw himself actually climbing the ladder?
not so bad.
between that and the not-entirely-crushed 'save your skin weasel your way out' instincts?
yeppppppppppppppppppppp.
and there's that whole thing where he's. basically always at least a little convinced that Aramat's going to leave him.
like no matter what
maybe.
all kinds of light and pain to be drawn from the lot. >_>
ugh
forced to confront all of that.
which is probably especially fun when you're with people who want to get the shit over with and think you should too
Isolde, you'll have Aramat for a good long time.
chill the fuck out.
which is probably difficult.
but. still.
not a plus that negates the shittiness of what happened.
but a plus.
or my tongue and hands?and then
oh hey
actually probably one of the reasons he eventually lets it slip to Manny.
because maybe he won't buy it, but... maybe yeah?
(also because there's that part of him that continues to want to actually
i mean, he has a little bit of it. enough that Manny'll keep working with him.
but not all that much.