Raye
[school stuff/rambling/rant/mute]
Raye
i'm pretty sure i just bombed that math test
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which really sucks considering i studied???
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i studied really hard
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i studied for like, five hours yesterday
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going over all the sections and making sure i could do the work
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i guess i wasn't thorough enough because i feel like i did awful
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i am just so fucking tired of feeling like i can't do this
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i am so tired of failing tests and not understanding my work
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and i know that it's partially my fault
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actually, it's completely my fault
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i'm not studying hard enough or trying hard enough
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i could be doing much better
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i am so much fucking better than this
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but now i've actually tried, i've tried really hard, and i've still managed to fuck it all over
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so, i dunno, maybe i'm not better than this. maybe i really can't do it.
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i have to keep my gpa above a 3.5 or else i'll lose my scholarships and i'll owe the school a shit ton of money
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and it's gotten to the point where i'm so stressed and tired that i'm starting to do that thing where i stop caring about it
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which obviously is not the answer
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but jesus, i just want to quit
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i also think i lost a plurk friend
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but i don't care
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it also doesn't fucking help that i am originally awful at math and my roommate never misses an opportunity to remind me
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which wouldn't normally bother me tbh
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like, i don't usually give a shit
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but recently it's started to piss me off
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i basically always need help with my math homework
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and it always takes me longer to understand what we're doing
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it always takes me longer to be able to do it on my own
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which in and of itself makes me feel dumb already
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but she never fucking fails to make me feel even dumber with bullshit passing comments while she's helping me
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i'm just really tired of feeling like i'm not good enough, i guess
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the only highlight of today is that i look fucking cute 
ᴍᴏᴍᴏᴄʜᴋᴀ »
oh no :c
ᴍᴏᴍᴏᴄʜᴋᴀ »
i had my fingers crossed for you to own that test, okok :c
Raye
i haven't gotten a grade back on it but i don't feel like i did well :c
ᴍᴏᴍᴏᴄʜᴋᴀ »
maybe you did better than you think you did :c
Raye
i really hope so :c
ᴍᴏᴍᴏᴄʜᴋᴀ »
:c
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i did take notes in music and paid attention tho. so there's that
ᴍᴏᴍᴏᴄʜᴋᴀ »
i'm proud of you!
i'm proud of you!
Raye
thanks! 
ᴍᴏᴍᴏᴄʜᴋᴀ »
<333
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ᴍᴏᴍᴏᴄʜᴋᴀ »
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update, i made a fucking 68 on my math test
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can i just quit everything
ᴍᴏᴍᴏᴄʜᴋᴀ »
no :c
ᴍᴏᴍᴏᴄʜᴋᴀ »
you can do it, everything'll be okay :c
ᴍᴏᴍᴏᴄʜᴋᴀ »
it's early yet!!