...a...dropping plurk... 
in which i have a lot of feelings and figure out exactly how much i am dropping, this is also kind of a what-is-going-on-with-me-right-now plurk bc they go hand in hand
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...a...dropping plurk... in which i have a lot of feelings and figure out exactly how much i am dropping, this is also kind of a what-is-going-on-with-me-right-now plurk bc they go hand in hand
...a...dropping plurk... in which i have a lot of feelings and figure out exactly how much i am dropping, this is also kind of a what-is-going-on-with-me-right-now plurk bc they go hand in hand
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shit i might cry
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ok
CHARISMA SURFER
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IN THE LIFE CATEGORY...i had been weighing this decision for like weeks (and stressing about it bc i hate the idea of dropping) and sort of putting it on hold until
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until things started settling out a bit?
Juroku Cha
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until i was no longer miserable and fragile 90% of the time and actually started doing things again
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and until after Intercon bc not having huge larp stresses might help things clear
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and all of that has happened
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and i
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have sort of turned inside out
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and have almost zero interest in rp
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I DON'T KNOW WHY
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MY BRAIN IS WEIRD
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MAYBE IT WILL COME BACK SOMEDAY but right now it is just like 
let's do other things
let's do other things
Juroku Cha
yeah, it happens!
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(by other things i mean like WRITE and SEW and ADULT, i am like filling with energy for life in general again but not for rp)
terravesty
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(also oh my god you all i'm gonna cry 
)
)
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OK I CAN DO THIS 
I LOVE YOU ALL AND I LOVED ALL THIS GAME AND I HOPE I CAN STILL HANG OUT WITH YOU ON THE PLURK AND MAYBE AT THE SAKURACON
I LOVE YOU ALL AND I LOVED ALL THIS GAME AND I HOPE I CAN STILL HANG OUT WITH YOU ON THE PLURK AND MAYBE AT THE SAKURACON
terravesty
OH ARE YOU COMING TO SAKURACON? 'w'
Juroku Cha
DEFINITELY HANGING OUT IN PLURK sadly am not going to sakuracon BUT STILL PLURK :U
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;u; reaches for gently
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i-it really says a lot about how amazing this community is that one of my decision-making factors wasnt "oh my god they are all going to hate me forever" bc normally i would be like that
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I WILL NEVER SEE YOU AT SAKURACON since. so far away from me
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terravesty
: I AM. WELL UNLESS YOU ALL HATE ME FOREVER BUT
Juroku Cha
you should go get pie in seattle when you get to sakuracon
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piiiieeeeeee 
we have it all
HUGSSSS!!
Juroku Cha
i keep hearing good things about the pie
we have it all
yes let us continue to hang out on plurk
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it will have to compete with my housemate's pie and that is stiff competition BUT I MUST TRY IT
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i will always keep you on plurk yes '^'
CHARISMA SURFER
Definitely keeping you on plurk. You're one of the Aather people I'm glad to have met. <3
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I WISH I COULD COME TO YOU
vex appeal
Do what you have to to take care of yourself. <3
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MOVING
I WILL TOTALLY STILL HANG OUT WITH YOU ON PLURK
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uh. dropping logistics. sob. I CANNOT THE SINBAD. like. at all. and his paid expired.
Sword Logic
can i just assume Echidna wound up keeping him and key cr got notes
terravesty
I DROPPED OUT OF AATHER TOO HUSH
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i never introed Beast so he will continue to have never existed, sob, that is also easy
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JOE AND VEN I NEED TO THINK ABOUT
🎃SPOOKY NOAH🎃
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if you want to give joe to someone and then get him back eventually i could hold onto him .o.
MOVED
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ven's paid expires in two weeks (scree the timing), and i absolutely refuse to drop him without some sort of goodbye post, and i want to give myself the option of "oh whoa there's just enough rp energy to
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keep puttering along with ven"
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bc ven
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i
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vennnnnnnn
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YOU'D BETTER PUT UP A GOODBYE POST
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aqua will hug you so much 
Juroku Cha
if you want you could do an extended legacy quest :U
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so i think what i would like there is bring him back...fff there is another con this weekend so NEXT WEEK, give myself a couple of days to go have feels with all his cr, and then decide whether to
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send him off before his paid expires. AND YEAH probably extended legacy quest or something
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LIKE ICLY it would need to be a quest
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he has promised to see things through in aather, he has a boyfriend and a twin and a riku in on that and specific plans for going home afterwards and so on, he's not going to dick off early
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one of the reasons i'm so sob forever at the idea of even dropping him is that he's SUPER-COMMITTED to aather and to staying in main realm on top of that
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so it would pretty much need to be beauty or mally or another persona he has a personal relationship with coming up to him and being like THERE IS SOMETHING KEY TO SAVING AATHER THAT ONLY YOU CAN DO
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OVER THERE
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and then he'd cry a lot and go
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bbbut for now my plan is to bring him back next week and give myself one last chance with him, and there's important aqua clinging and twin kissing that i will be sad forever if i don't play before dropping
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JOE uh. that actually largely depends upon whether i actually have a scheduled traumagame!
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i need to check w/ mods
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because if i do i totally want to hold onto him until i get a chance to run it
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this is pretty much me leaving doors open for myself
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my plans for joe pretty much depend upon me being able to run a traumagame with him soonish, and if i have a game slot but cancel it, i will basically then never be able to reschedule and never be able to
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pick him up if i want
Dangerous Chair
<3 do what's best for you! I will mourn (and so will Locke) but I adore you and am keeping you around for as long as I'm allowed to
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(Looooccckkeeeeeee 
I WILL MISS THAT GLORIOUS CR SO MUCH)
I WILL MISS THAT GLORIOUS CR SO MUCH)
Dangerous Chair
maybe someday we can psl or something!
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maybe!
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so yeah, ven will come back for at least a round of tags and a goodby post next week unless i manage to find a groove again, sinbad is dropped, beast never existed, and joe is ?? for now depending upon game
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schedule
big nui
oh jo joe ;;;;
Dangerous Chair
even if not it was fabulous. and you are fabulous. <3
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npc play is pretty different for me honestly! esp with the low ac. like the idea of carrying a persona for a couple of threads or a game a month isn't OH MY GOD I CAN'T HANDLE THIS IN MY LIFE RIGHT NOW it's
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ok that could be fun
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so
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joe is also kind of in the "we'll see" box but more optimistic
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jooooee 
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like if i am any aather at all i could probably be joe bc. no weekly ac? no constant 24/7 need to thread to keep up with everything?
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i think a lot of it might be the time load honestly, i have. really enjoyed the past month when i haven't let myself worry about having to thread, when i can let a night go by entirely to sewing or making
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things or other activities that bring me really deep satisfaction, or even just to chilling, without fussing about "ok if i skip this night when am i gonna make ac, wait tomorrow's a game i can't do anything
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tomorrow, i'll need to take another night to catch up with ven bc game will eat all my attention with sinbad," etc. etc.
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like i was really enjoying play but at the same time it's a huge time load and i'm really abruptly re-discovering other things i like doing?
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also i suck a time management and can get really fucking fussy when things feel like they're impinging on my ability to do what i want with my time
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blah blah blah tldr can't handle aather right now even while things are otherwise doing better
!!MOVING!!
<33333
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...now i close all my aather tabs and cry more
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<33333
ţħιмƀ£ε σʹƒµςκѕ
I will miss the hell out of Sinbad and playing with you, but definitely do what's best for you. ;; 
(Also never gonna give you up on plurk :E)
(Also never gonna give you up on plurk :E)
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holy fucking shit sinbad was almost on the first row of the sidebar
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wha
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how
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ţħιмƀ£ε σʹƒµςκѕ
: I'M GOING TO MISS PLAYING WITH YOU TOO god ;;;
I'M GOING TO MISS PLAYING WITH YOU TOO god ;;;
ţħιмƀ£ε σʹƒµςκѕ
DR. MEGANE
aww, I'll miss you and sinbaaaad
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DR. MEGANE
: I WILL MISS YOU TOOOOOO i feel super-sorry for canonmates magi cast was such a hilarious mix of people
magi cast was such a hilarious mix of people
sexy shark
Aww, Ven. But I understand the need to step back
Apple ⚘
ahhhh ;;;; i loved playing with you and you are totally awesomeee, do what you gotta do 
Sword Logic
Sword Logic
yeah totally legit for echidna to keep him
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a-and yes obviously I 100% love playing with you and getting to know you but sometimes you gotta do what you need to
Sword Logic
(also obviously I selfishly hope you have the energy to keep Ven around but. yes. do what you need to for your energy levels and your interest.)
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;o; vennnnn
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Sword Logic
: let me fall into talking with housemate and not see this until much later but thanks for taking stupidking and I LOVE PLAYING WITH YOU TOO if i
thanks for taking stupidking and I LOVE PLAYING WITH YOU TOO if i
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wind up falling off the boat with ven i will miss it so much
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best boyfriends
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best ever
Sword Logic
for serious