[mute]

we have this company holiday this evening that im supposed to go to.

ive spent like the last week dreading it, and now i don't feel good (though thats probably made worse by not wanting to go to stuff)

its all fancy and stupid and in like two hours.

i really want to cancel, but i don't.

may not stay there long if really dun feel good that isnt just social anxiety.

(well, and sinus issues from the goddamned weather's mood swings)

must leave in around 15 minutes. failed to do any of the things i meant to do before work-party

(Well, aside fromw atch ponies but that kinda doesn't count)

hopefully once i'm there it'll be better, cause social anxiety stuff works that way sometimes.

if not i think maybe i'll go home after foods.

HUGS ... nothing wrong with needing to go home or not feeling up with the social things. Just have to put that out there. The weather is also butts. And if you put it into windchill factors ... we've had

a 100 degree difference in temps within a week.

Because the jet-stream got it's panties in a knot. :| HUUUGS

i'm just all bleh and not up for social shit lately. better than i was a few weeks ago, i think, but not really feeling the need to go party. maybe if it wasn't so formal.

but, yeah, weather is fucking me up like woah even without possible-SAD

the whole damn climate is bipolar lately B|

went to party thing, wasn't that bad, but left after dinner. not sure if i feel good i left, bad i left, or just dead cause...dead.

not want dead, though B|