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FUCK ME SIDEWAYS, WTF. HOW???? I---I JUST GOT A MESSAGE FROM THE GUY I USED TO CRUSH ON IN HIGH SCHOOL
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I'M JUST
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FUCK
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I don't know how to feel
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but idk, I'm suddenly getting messages from people I haven't talked to in forever and I'm crying because today has been a bad day
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and it's like, I'm really frustrated with life rn
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and I just want to stop the life thing and idk, I didn't try anything because I've been good for three years and I don't want it to go to waste
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and I care about you lot and I remember that you guys actually care about me so I sigh and convince myself to get out of bed and that it's ok. Because no matter how much I hate everything rn, I love everything
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And you're all awesome and shit and now it's like
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people who I thought forgot who the hell I was are
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giving me these messages and it's like...????
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And I'm just kinda sitting her with my face in my hands and sobbing because fuck me, what did I do that God is rewarding me with wonderful people
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Because I'm pretty sure I've always been a fuck up and I've never really done anything great and
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this turned emotional really fast
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No, I got angry and upset and posted a "Nana is being depressed again" status on facebook and then closed out
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and it's connected to my phone, and I forget that sometimes but my phone was all like YO, YOU GOT A MESSGE
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and I open it up and it's a message on fb from him saying all these nice things and just
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I legit thought he forgot about me and wow
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Yeah ;; he's basically just concerned because I was being depressed and might've sounded a bit suicidal
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Which I am, but not as actively anymore, thankfully
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Sometimes I think things and then say them and they sound a lot worse to other people than to me and I don't realize it until it's pointed out to me
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that fucking astral emote I can't
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omg
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ilu2
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freaking QT KH babbus
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they are tho ;;
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cupcakes
oh gosh so cute
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mango diequiri
yay for old friends
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it's kinda amazing