realizing while writing a TL: this is the SATURN GOES APE SHITT month, huh

she might have strong feelings abt people being dehumanized lab rats Especially if they didn't consent to it (AND EVEN IF THEY DID, really)

I'm enjoying reading everyone's characters exploding with rage, I look forward to reading hers too

the wonderful fun combo of My Best Friend Got Kidnapped And Inhumanly Experimented On + Like Fifty Other People Also Did Too paired with the What The Fuck Was That Carnival Dream paired with the OKAY! LET'S GO DOWN THERE AND BURN THE PLACE

Right, it's such a good combo

'here's the trauma, here's the release whoopsie be careful with that lighter'

it's just a parade of 'people like me being used as nothing but tools to exploit for our bodies and skills'!! yippee!! wahoo!!

she is confirming her purpose deep in her heart as really fucking up patho-gen. it might take a while. that's fine! but one day when they think they're really getting everything they want, she wants to be there, and she wants to ruin it as thoroughly as possible

she IS in fact spiteful enough to ruin her chances at ever going home just to fuck them over

Rowan is right along side her for that plan

>:]

can't forget learning from northly at the start of the month 'patho-gen can control the thoughts of the Augmented, and make them feel like your own thoughts' which she is So Not Thrilled About

it's not a great month.