This is definitely going to be a casual month. I've been very slowly trundling through various developments with core CR both positive and negative (Misty, Arthur, etc)
Those who follow closely will be aware that Walter has been in a very negative state of mind, that I've been seriously considering letting him go without graduating, and that I've subsequently had thoughts like "well, maybe he can graduate but it'll be super depressing, he's just decided everything including crime is pointless"
I am currently opening my heart to a wider variety of CR and just, like, "mini arcs" and maybe that will accomplish something and give him a new direction in life
But I'm still pretty sporadic to be honest... There are other passions I have in life... But people seem to be enjoying playing with me at this amount nonetheless
no, most people who were close to pyotr know he would not have wanted an announcement. i believe this "party for no reason" is walter's way of trying to avoid any such announcement by posting something without actually mentioning it
I ask because Collins wouldn't know in that case what's up with Walter. I feel like maybe he would if he was more aware that Pyotr is gone rather than just thinking he's seeing the other less. If that makes sense.
I mean, seriously. Everyone always eventually shoves that down his throat and Collins hates it. This place sucks. It is not great or wonderful or purposeful.
(Collins is trying but he's not in the greatest of places right now either tbh. He has not be doing so great. Maybe it'll change with port or something. Who knows.)
To elaborate on some of this Reminder that in canon Misty, without having wanted to do so, kills Natalie, while Walter becomes her boyfriend In season 3, six weeks later Walter comes to Misty like "funerals and memorials are time honored grieving technologies. Maybe you should go" (SHE WASN'T EVEN INVITED)
And he had a lot of reasons for saying that, but anyway... There have been so many announcements lately, most notably Varker announcing Hannah when Walter had no reason to even think they knew each other So he has to get ahead of it somehow He did have genuine faith that multiple people would want to share a moment of silence
When I was choosing the musical, I started thinking about Chess. You know, it's got a Russian. But here were my list of songs iconic enough that everyone would know they're from Chess * Pity the child * One night in Bangkok * The deal (no deal) * You and I * I know him so well
Actually the deal no deal didn't even have name recognition None of these worked for a lot of reasons though one night in Bangkok stayed in contention the longest because of, again, the idea of ports as a brief respite from all this
Then I was like maybe Tchaikovsky??? Maybe some other musical with Russians? Anastasia??? And I FINALLY REMEMBERED LES MIS. and this song really really suited the situation.
if Varker actually knew what the get together was for he'd be respectful of it, potentially even take his leave in the understanding that it isnt for him but the people mourning/celebrating Pyotr.
I need the people to know Walter: I'm trying to make this designated warden cabin to use as bathroom project happen Malcolm: doesn't Arthur 's polycule have a million cabins? Go ask them. They genuinely want to help Walter: okay Arthur: ... This is a conspiracy to avoid the obvious solution of renovating the existing bathrooms
Walter: who would have ever thought Malcolm would be wrong about whether talking to a specific person would be a good idea, and/or about alleged cabin safety
He honestly thinks it's legitimately plausible that Arthur is the one who is right considering that the only time cabin safety worked during his time was the TRIAL FOR SINNERS
But that's just another friendly reminder that the admiral literally specifically conspires for them to be tortured like literal hell, and that the wardens all to some degree accept this
now to be fair arthur doesn't think that this is a bathroom conspiracy, just that walter's natural propensity for scheming and conspiracy is getting in his own way for seeing more straightforward solutions
Walter honestly did kinda hope this would pit wardens against each other but he's also like really? The instant Pyotr is gone, I finally get clocked over fuckin bathrooms?
It was truly so funny writing Walter saying "I'll have you know this is not a conspiracy, this is a public scheme" like saying with his full chest it's still a scheme
sorry not sorry that the only way walter was able to outsmart arthur was by literally just not talking to him until he was ready to strike, bc otherwise arthur would have pinged him almost immediately
Another thing is just like Arthur due to his very different life experiences doesn't seem to be really relating to where Walter is coming from in terms of an actual room-like bathroom being so much better and also kinda hard to accomplish within the existing bathroom cluster (even assuming totally normal renovation)
Which is partially future privilege but also... genuine PTSD... ( not saying Arthur does not also have it or other trauma) Just like in this specific case
oh nah man, arthur grew up in an orphanage. he's fully aware of the horrors of communal bathrooms and also the genuine peace a private space to be vulnerable and naked can be
Walter, Malcolm would have advised asking sheehan or John. Never go to the guy you tried to eat. But good on you for apologizing. /slaps him on the back
And as for Sheehan, Arthur is the one promoting this bill that has as a central pillar "oh yeah maybe your lover will be too biased to act as your adjudicator uwu" (which is part of why Walter genuinely believes its sole true purpose is to relitigate Arthur's personal grudges)
Walter points at how he is bringing up Lark over and over over the course of many months. Sure (like Thrawn also perceives what he has observed this way)
what's funny is that Vincent put that in because of Erik (the 'my lover did a booboo) because he felt like Godric didn't give a shit about the people he hurt when he came in
Man now I'm shaking my head at the lost opportunity of Walter going to Vincent like "... The idea Eric didn't start that fight with Archer is completely insane, right"
Vincent's feelings on it are 'he started it, but as much as he hates it Eric probably shouldn't have had the shit beat out of him but also Godric didn't do shit so it feels like it evens out even if I know, realistically, this is two failures of a system and that isn't better'
Walter's main feelings on the fight were like Eric shows up not fully nerfed. He kills several people. Godric says he talked Eric down. Literally no punishment. Eric fights Archer, and it's self evident he was not nerfed and he started it THEN Eric ASKS to be nerfed
I need the people to know "Why might other people want to be here, what reasons might exist outside of your self-serving, myopic point of view?" Walter at least not saying every single goddamn asshole thought that comes into his head (though obviously he's still at a level that many would see as unreasonable)
But like Ok. He can accept that people genuinely think that graduates become more moral and happier, due to many different examples He disagrees but he can accept that people think this is genuinely the informed conclusion they drew as opposed to immediately just swallowing the claim of a suspicious alien demigod
BUT Walter does genuinely think that every single warden can easily be proven to be * Numb to their own self preservation and needing to feel needed, due to severe personal trauma (Malcolm) * Under immediate personal duress (some are even just dead) * Callous due to different social norms, often nonhuman (Sam, Tendi) That's even separate from morality
why do none of these musical song titles work lol I'm freaking serious
Reminder that in canon Misty, without having wanted to do so, kills Natalie, while Walter becomes her boyfriend
In season 3, six weeks later Walter comes to Misty like "funerals and memorials are time honored grieving technologies. Maybe you should go" (SHE WASN'T EVEN INVITED)
There have been so many announcements lately, most notably Varker announcing Hannah when Walter had no reason to even think they knew each other
So he has to get ahead of it somehow
He did have genuine faith that multiple people would want to share a moment of silence
* Pity the child
* One night in Bangkok
* The deal (no deal)
* You and I
* I know him so well
None of these worked for a lot of reasons though one night in Bangkok stayed in contention the longest because of, again, the idea of ports as a brief respite from all this
Walter: I'm trying to make this designated warden cabin to use as bathroom project happen
Malcolm: doesn't Arthur 's polycule have a million cabins? Go ask them. They genuinely want to help
Walter: okay
Arthur: ... This is a conspiracy to avoid the obvious solution of renovating the existing bathrooms
Eric shows up not fully nerfed. He kills several people. Godric says he talked Eric down. Literally no punishment. Eric fights Archer, and it's self evident he was not nerfed and he started it
THEN Eric ASKS to be nerfed
"Why might other people want to be here, what reasons might exist outside of your self-serving, myopic point of view?"
Walter at least not saying every single goddamn asshole thought that comes into his head (though obviously he's still at a level that many would see as unreasonable)
Ok. He can accept that people genuinely think that graduates become more moral and happier, due to many different examples
He disagrees but he can accept that people think this is genuinely the informed conclusion they drew as opposed to immediately just swallowing the claim of a suspicious alien demigod
Walter does genuinely think that every single warden can easily be proven to be
* Numb to their own self preservation and needing to feel needed, due to severe personal trauma (Malcolm)
* Under immediate personal duress (some are even just dead)
* Callous due to different social norms, often nonhuman (Sam, Tendi)
That's even separate from morality