I miss having hobbies, like maybe it's my migraine talking but I'm laying here unable to sleep because my skullcracker hurts so bad and I just!!! Miss doing fun things. Like?? I want to try new crafts but I've spent a lot just trying to get food and meds and emergency supplies that I can't afford trying new things.

I'm too tired and stressed to write, art is a struggle but I'm slowly winning that fight thank goodness

Definitely don't have the energy to rp anymore and the app process has gotten too stressful and as silly as it sounds it always feels like I'm annoying people??? In rp??? Might be the bad brain talking. Probably the bad brain talking.

I do want to try a new skill that looks like fun but my gosh I cannot afford new craft supplies

Chewing tiredly on the bars of my containment

One day my serotonin will return from the war

during the worst of my long covid and migraines and unemployed i felt like this a lot

it never totally went away while that was happening, but dropping my expectations helped a lot. i REALLY focused on some really reduced writing and some really simple art (a lot of color mixing and color grids, really straightforward figure drawing)

I tried to really keep track of what I WAS doing b/c i got too depressed about like...knowing I was nowhere near my old capacity

but looking back I'm pretty happy with that time period and prioritizing what was fun to do and still making stuff

sonic striker : yeah I'm trying to do stuff that is like, less stress? Partially why I tried to do those coloring page designs. They're fun, they're low stress, I was learning something new and giving myself grace to not Be Perfect about it

Also my brain still hurts so I'm sitting here teaching myself to knit now that I've done one page of sketches for today

YEAH the less stress is a huge help, and the constant not being perfect

i had literal brain inflammation between the migraines so i get you

the good news is now that I'm better again, all those strategies still benefit me but i'm sorry. it's rough.

oh gosh so glad you're not dealing with that anymore bb