N̢̺̝o̫̟͖L̼͍̞。
i know it's just cuz i'm angry and frustrated, but once again, i wonder if i should just quit streaming and give up everything that brings me a modicum of joy because there just isn't enough time in the day
N̢̺̝o̫̟͖L̼͍̞。
i'm so tired
N̢̺̝o̫̟͖L̼͍̞。
getting more work heaped on me when i already do so much
N̢̺̝o̫̟͖L̼͍̞。
how about i just stop doing dishes and cleaning up after everyone and cooking dinners?
N̢̺̝o̫̟͖L̼͍̞。
stuff that clearly doesn't matter because it doesn't make money
N̢̺̝o̫̟͖L̼͍̞。
and obv streaming and everything else i ENJOY doing
N̢̺̝o̫̟͖L̼͍̞。
that make me not want to kill myself
N̢̺̝o̫̟͖L̼͍̞。
THIS IS WHY YOURE FUCKING MISERABLE BY THE WAY ITS BECAUSE YOU DO NOTHING BUT WORK
Valour
Do not give up your joys
N̢̺̝o̫̟͖L̼͍̞。
i don't want to but as long as i'm stuck here i don't have much of a choice, something has to give and it obvi can't be anything i do for others
N̢̺̝o̫̟͖L̼͍̞。
i'm not allowed to be selfish
Lampy
serious question if you ask for different treatment will they just like, kick you out on the curb?
Lampy
Cuz that is always a possibility with shitty home situations but also, the first step to change is gonna be to ask for it
Lampy
If it's genuinely not a situation where you can seriously stream, maybe you've gotta figure out how to channel the energy to recorded stuff/videos
N̢̺̝o̫̟͖L̼͍̞。
i asked for change and things just always go back to this
N̢̺̝o̫̟͖L̼͍̞。
i would prob get kicked out if i just refused to do any work
N̢̺̝o̫̟͖L̼͍̞。
but like more and more work gets piled on me
N̢̺̝o̫̟͖L̼͍̞。
so i have to give up something because "no" is not allowed
N̢̺̝o̫̟͖L̼͍̞。
rp will prob be the first to go
N̢̺̝o̫̟͖L̼͍̞。
which honestly i'm kind of at the point of giving up on it as is
N̢̺̝o̫̟͖L̼͍̞。
but like i'm supposed to be streaming rn, instead i'm working
N̢̺̝o̫̟͖L̼͍̞。
and i'm in too much of a sour mood to like do a work stream
N̢̺̝o̫̟͖L̼͍̞。
as far as like recording vids goes idk what i'd do for that, i do not have the brain to write a script and do stuff that would be "evergreen" and playing games and editing down vids sound boring af
N̢̺̝o̫̟͖L̼͍̞。
i really have nothing to offer as a content creator, lbr, i don't know why i'm trying so hard to do something that's going to go nowhere, i know its not going to work
Lampy
I will say, all home scheduling stuff aside, that you've gotta have some sort of constant presence outside of stream if you're gonna grow at all, even if it seems boring and hard to do
Lampy
You're a GREAT artist and you're a perfectly fine streamer, I really think you're at the point where you've gotta figure out promo
N̢̺̝o̫̟͖L̼͍̞。
yeah idk how to promo especially when algorithms are shit
N̢̺̝o̫̟͖L̼͍̞。
finding that one thing that pops off and gets eyes on it feel impossible
N̢̺̝o̫̟͖L̼͍̞。
i could prob try to do a giveaway but only have like 2 ppl enter lmao
N̢̺̝o̫̟͖L̼͍̞。
AND THEN I'D HAVE TO FULLFILL IT BUT WITH WHAT TIME
Lampy
Yeah don't do a giveaway
N̢̺̝o̫̟͖L̼͍̞。
i'm not even able to take comms because i gotta do stuff for everyone else
Lampy
But like yeah either you push back on the time that everything else is taken up, or you keep streaming as your "I do it on no schedule, for fun" hobby
N̢̺̝o̫̟͖L̼͍̞。
like back when i was trying to make art my thing and try to take regular comms, every time i'd start on something i'd have to go do shit for others
N̢̺̝o̫̟͖L̼͍̞。
which is why i would stay up ridiculous hours
N̢̺̝o̫̟͖L̼͍̞。
push back doesn't work
N̢̺̝o̫̟͖L̼͍̞。
it just pisses ppl off and makes my life harder
N̢̺̝o̫̟͖L̼͍̞。
like i tried to carve out time that wouldn't be a problem for anyone else but guess what? it still wasn't enough
N̢̺̝o̫̟͖L̼͍̞。
literally the only time i can do shit is between the hours of midnight and noon
N̢̺̝o̫̟͖L̼͍̞。
but then i'm expected to be awake the rest of the day too do shit for others
N̢̺̝o̫̟͖L̼͍̞。
i just need to not be here anymore but i can't afford that
Lampy
it's a crap situation overall
Lampy
Some part of is gonna have to give, and it sucks
N̢̺̝o̫̟͖L̼͍̞。
i owe them 4k for gracie's emergency vet visits
N̢̺̝o̫̟͖L̼͍̞。
i need a new pc because mine isn't cutting it lately
N̢̺̝o̫̟͖L̼͍̞。
and i need to get out of this house
N̢̺̝o̫̟͖L̼͍̞。
yeah something has to give and unfortunately it's on me to give up things
👻🔥Anifreet🔥👻
I hate this for you
👻🔥Anifreet🔥👻
its such an unfair situation
N̢̺̝o̫̟͖L̼͍̞。
i hate it too
N̢̺̝o̫̟͖L̼͍̞。
funny thing is, if i got a job outside the house suddenly i wouldn't have to do so much shit
N̢̺̝o̫̟͖L̼͍̞。
but no one will fucking hire me
N̢̺̝o̫̟͖L̼͍̞。
like if i was making money i'd be given the time i need to do stuff
N̢̺̝o̫̟͖L̼͍̞。
but that amount of money would have been at least $500 a month so amy can take half of it
Lampy
blegggggh
Lampy
I will offer, if you do find yourself with anything clipped from your vods or that you want cleaned up, video editing
Lampy
Cuz I think I'm at the point where what I can do is worth offering to do for others
Lampy
And I'm happy to work on some stuff for free for friends
N̢̺̝o̫̟͖L̼͍̞。
i'll let you know if i do
Lampy
Lampy
you make cool shit and deserve a proper go at stuff
N̢̺̝o̫̟͖L̼͍̞。
i wish i felt like i made cool shit lmao
👻🔥Anifreet🔥👻
I think you make really cool shit
N̢̺̝o̫̟͖L̼͍̞。
thanks guys
👻🔥Anifreet🔥👻
I love all your designs so much
Lampy
they are SUCH fuckin' cool designs
any other name
yeah your character designs are all very cool
N̢̺̝o̫̟͖L̼͍̞。
tjanks
(Eat the candy)
You make cool shit! You're a really great artist, like lampy said
N̢̺̝o̫̟͖L̼͍̞。
thank you