I'm going to be 36 tomorrow currently not married and have no kids while everyone around me does and I know I probably would be the same if not for all the trauma I endured in my early twenties but I am making progress
I didn't ice a guy who's interested in me! normally I would have tried to hide or not talk to him or even make excuses about why I couldn't talk to him but I didn't this time!
Part of me still finds it wild that this lasted the whole school year I even showed my friend his picture since I take so many pictures of him when he's doing music for the school and idk it's a constantly battle not to ignore him or even not take pictures of him I don't know huffs
maybe this is actually the field for me like this year I had a lot amazing things happen including we had one student who always dropped the first letter of each word so like instead of "cat" he would say "at" but on the day of their ceremony he said my name! I nearly cried
the same with our spanish student her parents hugged me and thanked me for working with her I even got a chance to take a picture with her and saw her baby sister!
when I visited my old school so many of my former students came up to hug me some of them are in middle school now! to know that they still remember me makes me tear up
I guess last year I was so deep in my head and my anxiety that I really thought I didn't make a difference and nearly believed everything I was told but seeing it in front of me makes me smile
I've been thinking about kids and motherhood lately and like not that I'm opposed to it I'm also aware it's a big change and i'm not jumping into it blindly but i also wonder if I'm ready for such a big life change i'm not getting pressured by family or anything it's just something I'm thinking about
since I take so many pictures of him when he's doing music for the schooland idk it's a constantly battle not to ignore him or even not take pictures of him I don't know huffs