ah... the depression has hit

just thinking about how i wish i could this or that but money prevents me from doing so

and now i'm 4k more in debt because of this cat getting sick (i love her)

and no one will hire me (not that i can physically stand for hours or carry around 50lbs or crap on the regular anymore)

i am 100% reliant on my stepmother's business and doing stuff for her (not that i'll be getting paid anymore since i she's the one that paid for gracie)

i have art but so i'm so damn slow i wouldn't be able to take many comms and i can't charge more cuz no one's going to pay me what i'm worth

the adopts prob won't sale at the price i want them to sell at

and obvi streamings not gonna pay bills even after i get affiliate (which is easier now so i'll prob be able to get it this week)

i wish i could go back in time and do shit over with the knowledge i have so i'm not stuck in this place