[Mute][MH] anxiety plurk, external screaming, etc

I just can't shake the feeling that there's something wrong with my tags

Everytime I post I feel good about it, then I'm second guessing myself a few hours later and chewing and chewing and chewing

and usually I can shake it, but I can't right now. I can't shake the feeling that my RP is badWrongGross. to pushy, God moding, bland

that Aurelia simply isn't an interesting character cause she's my OC and people can't see her internal voice the way I do, and she seems vapid and ooc in every thread

inconsistent

and there's probably reasonable self criticism somewhere in here, but I can't hear it over the sound of buzzing insects telling me I'm gonna fuck up and lose my one good social activity

which terrifies me because I am so fucking lonely, stuck in suburnurn HELL without a car

and wow I really should delete this because I'm just whining. I will. tomorrow. maybe. people should mute this I'm just screaming in here

fuck

don't feel bad rp not real

whenever i feel bad i think: rp not real

and then i think 2025 fuck it we ball which is my mantra for 2025: fuck it we ball

basically my philosophy is: the world is bad on a level beyond any level it has ever been currently. we are all on constant tenterhooks irl

you know what, fuck it we ball is good words. and I gotta remember always I'm anxious in the anxiety havers hobby and just gotta chill and wait. time is not as long as I feel it is.

so why be freaked out abt rp. not real. just lean into it. if you're rly worried like jotting down notes and tracking dev and whatnot is useful for me

yeah, gotta remember everyone is Going Through It

I appreciate your words of wisdom

ye

anytime!