thats right. im n xenoblade posting again. spoilers obv

watching somebody play thru xbc3 for the first time, and im thinking about mio's line "whatever life is lost, i wont let you shoulder it alone" and isnt that just exactly n's problem

hes alllllllllllll about shouldering sins alone, idiot

if he wasnt bound and determined to shoulder it all, and actually communicated for once in his life, m would not have been so miserable

to the end, did she even know why n killed the city, other than it was ordered? and really, would he have done it, if he hadnt already decided he'd shoulder any sin to take her back?

if he was able to reach out to others, he wouldnt have decided the only way to end things was killing his great grand daughter. but no, hes stupid. love looking at him thru a scope usually used to set ants on fire

"on my head be it" literally anyone: no??????????

i just think its fascinating bc like. i love noah. noah is actually my favoritest boy

but n is the evil messed up version that also is foundational to noah

bc noah's earliest choices are anchored in his soul deep dread of Being Like That

he cant conceptualize why, he has no memory of it, but he decided that wielding a weapon was scary bc what would he become? an inherently selfish choice, by riku's reckoning, but who can blame a 10-12 yo for that

the shadow of n's choices bleed through noah's foundation. they are the same person, but also, the shadow cast by n means that its inevitable that noah is a little different, always

so its fun to look at noah deciding to risk killing all his friends from another colony, see the horror, the crime in it, and then decide "on my head be it." and then all his friends (ven vc at least i have some) saying no ur not idiot. OUR mistake\