[badbrain] screaming about things both radicalized and not within

I am grateful for this job but I am nowhere near as quick to say that I’m happy

Being an allegedly “smart” Black college dropout with no applicable skills working as a live in personal assistant to an old white lady FEELS BAD TODAY

The family has been nothing but nice, she’s great

But I feel stupid and bad about this right now

I’m in South Dartmouth Massachusetts

I'm so sorry this is hitting you sideways today

My closest friend is almost two hours away in Boston

I’m currently helping manage my client at the Bach Festival in Bethlehem PA and I don’t want to be here.

I’m supposedly more than this job but it doesn’t feel like it

I barely have enough energy to do any of my personal projects

Im here at the Bach festival because the son that lives here feels overwhelmed but literally this means that im going to be attached to this family for every fucking even they do

Like if she makes it to the December holidays, I don’t get any because I’ll be travelling with her

Because she’s fucking 97

I’m not unhappy I’m just fucking exhausted and want my own time