me in my last appointment with my (former) psychiatrist: idk my depressive episodes don't typically interfere too badly with my relationships me now: has not plurked in nearly 2wks, also has not been home in nearly 2wks
i'm ok but i have really been rotating some nasty revelations about interpersonal stuff in my head this past week, and living in my house sucks as usual, and my follow-up appt with my new psych got cancelled and i need to call and figure out why,
an entry-level full-time WFH job opportunity that i'm qualified for sort of fell into my lap and i'm very very nervous about the process of pursuing that and either failing and feeling awful about it or succeeding and having to shuffle the entire rest of my life around this sudden new level of responsibility
and the idea of not being with my partner while digesting all this has been unbearable so a long weekend with him to visit some of our DC area friends has turned into me just holing up in his apartment except when i have needed to pop back home to grab stuff to go to work,,,
anyway i really do for real have to go home today bc i have absolutely none clean laundry left, especially my work clothes, and i want to check on my poor sad plants
apparently even though i got my application in before the posting was taken down, i put it in too late for HR to pass it on to the person actually choosing from the applicants, which is a thousand times more frustrating to me than just getting beat out by more qualified people
despite myself I made myself do enrichment and flesh prison maintenance today and am now very tired from the none sleep I got but I can feel the vitamin D squaring up with my towering depression
I need to check with my TL on whether we're actually cycle counting all the fucked up product delivery tonight... manager said last night that we were but she's not here tonight and the TLs haven't mentioned it
I did retrieve my jacket and finished all my dumb bullshit, and gave a ride to my coworker bc despite myself and the whole world I am a helpful person at heart
also god communication between my manager and team leads is so abysmal. my coworker didn't know we were supposed to count those UNFI products tonight bc manager wasn't on shift and neither of the TLs told him. I am hoping he doesn't get talked to about it bc that ain't his fault
me now: has not plurked in nearly 2wks, also has not been home in nearly 2wks