shibe☀️summer
[mh] misery whining goes here
shibe☀️summer
mostly just writing shit out because i kind of feel like i need a good cry but i have not had one in a minute
shibe☀️summer
but also like. i have been having a bad string of days where I really just feel like i am incapable of accomplishing anything beyond the bare minimum
shibe☀️summer
and it is just really hard for me to not sink into despair about my prospects and what the hell I'm gonna do about it
shibe☀️summer
like. none of my job applications are panning out or turning into anything. not even a recruiter phone call
shibe☀️summer
and like. last week i tried to put together a more robust list of jobs to apply for so maybe I could apply to more things throughout the week and it just didn't happen
shibe☀️summer
I still haven't sent my demos out to the list of casting directors and folks who I've connected with in the past
shibe☀️summer
I'm late in following up with the folks I took classes with last week
shibe☀️summer
I have like. several actually really good auditions sitting on my plate right now but I still couldn't get out of bed until like 1pm
shibe☀️summer
my dirty dishes have piled up. i need to take the trash out. my home is no cleaner than it was weeks aggo
shibe☀️summer
i just feel so miserable most of the time
shibe☀️summer
and i just don't see a way out of it. i don't know
shibe☀️summer
even though I'm taking steps like I'm 70% of the way through my PMP class, I signed up for an MBA program, i did at least manage to get my entry for the VO contest in on time it just feels like it's not going to amount to anything
shibe☀️summer
like it's not going to change this terrible status quo that i find myself in
shibe☀️summer
and meanwhile the world around me is so fucking awful that i really do not have the mental wherewithal to stop and look at it for any extended amount of time because i feel so incapable of even helping myself that i don't know how i can help anyone else
bwutawity
I love you friend. I know it feels like that right now but it will turn around. It's so hard and you're doing your best
I love you friend. I know it feels like that right now but it will turn around. It's so hard and you're doing your best
shibe☀️summer
and idk. i just feel lost. and stuck. and useless and boring
shibe☀️summer
bwutawity
: my best frankly feels real crappy right about now but thank you
DoveyPips🔪
in the pit
holds your hands
in the pit
I feel this a lot
shibe☀️summer
DoveyPips🔪
: 
shibe☀️summer
in the pit
: holds your hands i hate it
bwutawity
sometimes it be that way 
shibe☀️summer
it be that way real bad
shibe☀️summer
i have at least gotten the cry going so that objective of this plurk has been accomplished
shibe☀️summer
take that, emotions
DoveyPips🔪
it's a terrible time, I'm sorry things feel bleak
shibe☀️summer
i wish for it to be not this
DoveyPips🔪
I'd wash the dishes for you if I was there
shibe☀️summer
thank you, friend
snips
I'm so sorry TK, this is such a rough and awful place to be in I've been there, done that, it sucks. Would it help to have someone sit on a discord call with you and just keep you company to help you get something done?
I've been there, done that, it sucks. Would it help to have someone sit on a discord call with you and just keep you company to help you get something done?
shibe☀️summer
snips
: that would be helpful, yeah
shibe☀️summer
i need to go walk the dog now but maybe later in the evening
Ain'tpril
leans on 
shibe☀️summer
also if any seattle friends ever just wanna. come over
shibe☀️summer
and exist in my space. while i clean it. that would be helpful
shibe☀️summer
i cannot promise that yousuke will behave himself or that beau will show her face but if you're lucky you might get either of these outcomes
snips
I'm totally happy to Just Vibe on a discord call and provide quiet support whenever you need it
snips
I do have the occasional meeting I have to drop in and out of for work, but i'm working from home
bwutawity
I WOULD GLADLY COME OVER TO HELP OUT
terravesty
terravesty
things is hard and rough and scary, and being unemployed even in "good" times is difficult. I could come over to yours on Saturday, instead of our usual cafe thing?
shibe☀️summer
terravesty
: that would be cool yes
shibe☀️summer
bwutawity
: if you also wanna come over on saturday i would welcome it
terravesty
I can do
I can do
shibe☀️summer
yay
✨👁👅👁✨
espresso witch
Things are awful and I'm so sorry you're having such an awful time right now, you're awesome no matter what
go marnie
