[ever crisis]

finally caught up with the latest chapter of first soldier and DAMN am I in my Angeal emotions.

Not in the least because some of the lines are stuff I've written out in tags, as introspection or outright dialogue.

the self-accusations, the self-blame, the conclusions that he's selfish and worthless

that boy tried to be the stalwart support of everyone, over and over again especially when they denied needing him, and he had extremely little support himself, and when push came to shove, he watched that only person literally take her life rather than help him.

it, um.

was the last stone that fucked him up.

and nobody lifted a finger to try to get him out, Genesis because he was too deeply stuck in his own pain, physical and mental, and Hollander, instead of helping, tearing him up even more.

/flappy hands emotions. I'm having them.