對於一些事情有點困惑。

昨天晚上被蚊子吵醒睡不著的時候，想起來Trevor Noah訪問網球選手Nick Kyrgios的podcast，就重聽了一下。

Nick說他有很長一段時間狀態很不好（精神狀態不好）但因為他一直有贏球，所有人就跟他說：你怎麼會狀況不好，你很好啊！

但他其實狀態很不好。

後來，他看到大阪直美打進了法網，卻沒有去，因為她想顧及她的心理狀態，他突然覺得，其實這正是他的感覺。就是他一直打球，也贏了，可是心理的狀態其實很不好。他覺得大阪直美做了他一直以來應該做，但沒有做的事情，就是保護好自己的心理狀態。

他說，如果大阪直美能打進法網，那是她的本事，如果她因為想顧及心靈健康，決定不打法網，那也應該是她的決定。

當然我是很粗略地翻譯一下意思而已，他的原文在我聽起來像這樣，可能有遺漏的地方，因為他語速蠻快的：

It was a big dark depression that I was in, and no one, like, just because I was winning tennis, everyone’s like, ok he’s fine then. And that’s what’s dangerous is that people will just get up and continually to go [play tennis] because they have to go. But they are really not ok.

And Naomi was the first kind of person that I was seen taking time away from the sport. Like when she did the French Open, everyone was like “Oh how could you! It’s a privilege to be there!” But she earned her rights to be in the French Open. She doesn’t want to play for mental health. That’s up to HER.

I saw that and I was like: Holy shit, someone’s actually doing it! Cause I was going through that for ages before she did it. And I told her and I was like, you helped me, because maybe if I kept going I wouldn’t be here right now. Because that was how bad it was.

是這個podcast：

Nick Kyrgios is More Than a Tennis Star