☀️ ceeshine!
☀️ ceeshine!
long celebration weekend ahead so i desperately need to catch a nap soon but i can't turn off my manic energy
ɢʟᴀᴍ★sᴛᴀʀ
puts a nap spell on you
BuyMoreCrystals
I hope you get some good sleep and have a great long celebration weekend!
ᴊᴀᴄᴋᴘᴏᴛ
happy birthday!
☀️ ceeshine!
THANK YOU FRIENDS
☀️ ceeshine!
went to karaoke and sang so much and had so much soju and then got home and promptly passed tf out
☀️ ceeshine!
today... escape room
round and round
BIRTH
ɢʟᴀᴍ★sᴛᴀʀ
ESCAPE THAT ROOM
ɢʟᴀᴍ★sᴛᴀʀ
also hap birth friend
𝑆𝑎𝑢𝑙𝑡𝑖𝑠𝑚 ⚖️
WE GON ESCAPE MFER
☀️ ceeshine!
we escaped (sort of) (not really) (but I'm counting it)
Fiery Grump
AAAA LATE BUT HAPPY BELATED TWIN BIRF
☀️ ceeshine!
HAPPY BELATED DAY BDAY TWIN!!!
☀️ ceeshine!
forgot I had therapy tomorrow, thank you text and email reminders
☀️ ceeshine!
why am i so tired at 9pm :-(
☀️ ceeshine!
tummy quite angy today which I think might be anxiety
Fiery Grump
sending hugs and energy!!!
☀️ ceeshine!
thank u therapy today so hopefully that. helps
☀️ ceeshine!
my tummy has been so upset today and for what
☀️ ceeshine!
I am trying to do a stupid menial cleaning task at work!!!
☀️ ceeshine!
sitting crankily in my car in the parking lot bc i am so tired of the porch light getting turned off while I am working in pitch fucking blackness despite my multiple requests to try and remember to leave it on for me
☀️ ceeshine!
brought to you by the freezing rain I had to drive home in and now get to walk through in almost total darkness
ɢʟᴀᴍ★sᴛᴀʀ
I literally don't understand why this is so hard
☀️ ceeshine!
me fucking either dude
Fiery Grump
Fiery Grump
it's not that hard!! why are people like this
☀️ ceeshine!
like it is not a bad reflex to turn a light off when you're done with it but. i have lived here and worked the graveyard shift since we moved in a year and a half ago at this point. i have my work schedule on a shared gcalendar. i have asked multiple times for this to be considered
☀️ ceeshine!
in the summer when the sun actually comes up it's whatever but when it's freezing rain and i can't tell how icy our walkway is in the pitch fucking black of morning I GET VERY CRANKY LMFAO
ᴊᴀᴄᴋᴘᴏᴛ
oh no! would the flashlight on your phone work in a pinch?
☀️ ceeshine!
it would.......... if i didn't need 2 hands to unlock our door in winter bc the temperature changes warp it so much that i have to pull it back into the frame with one hand while unlocking the deadbolt with the other
☀️ ceeshine!
i hate this house LMFAO
☀️ ceeshine!
i could use it up the walkway though that is true
ᴊᴀᴄᴋᴘᴏᴛ
OOF
ᴊᴀᴄᴋᴘᴏᴛ
well, at least the walkway can be lit
☀️ ceeshine!
yeah i will try to remember that next time... i was just so cranky in the cold and rain
Silvie
do you think like... maybe a reminder note somewhere would help?? like by the switch itself or on the fridge
Silvie
Leave Light On For Cee... Blease...
ᴊᴀᴄᴋᴘᴏᴛ
ooh that's a good idea, I think! a coworker of mine used to leave a note next to her light switch in her office to remind her to swap her glasses since she would absolutely just walk out with her computer glasses LMAO
☀️ ceeshine!
that is a good idea, i will see about implementing some kind of note system
ɢʟᴀᴍ★sᴛᴀʀ
honestly. I would paste a bunch of sticky notes around the light switch. and if that didn't work, just increase the surface area of sticky notes. but I am a bitch. but also being a bitch is warranted in this situation I think
☀️ ceeshine!
LMFAO
☀️ ceeshine!
i don't want to be passive-aggressive or anything but i also don't want to die slipping on ice that i can't fucking see
☀️ ceeshine!
one of those just "sit in the car in the parking lot and just dissociate" mornings... got a lot rattling around in my head
Fiery Grump
ɢʟᴀᴍ★sᴛᴀʀ
gently sorts the items into nice compartments
☀️ ceeshine!
belatedly thank u...
☀️ ceeshine!
been quiet in here bc work has been kicking my fucking ass ugh
☀️ ceeshine!
I'm so tired... so tired........ hate inventory
☀️ ceeshine!
just need to survive one more night until my day off and then . right back to work again until the weekend
☀️ ceeshine!
if I didn't need the money so badly I would just strike Fridays from my availability so this stops happening to me but... alas... I do need the cursed paper
ɢʟᴀᴍ★sᴛᴀʀ
I wish they were more conscientious about scheduling you time off :<
☀️ ceeshine!
yeah me too but lol my manager being conscientious about anything
☀️ ceeshine!
(she's not the worst but she has way too much going on in her brain at all times)
☀️ ceeshine!
the main problem is that this usually happens to me over the weekend... because the schedules are written from Sunday to Saturday, so no one looks at the previous week's schedule when writing the new one
☀️ ceeshine!
so I'll end up here Wednesday to Monday sometimes
ɢʟᴀᴍ★sᴛᴀʀ
exhausted squinting
ɢʟᴀᴍ★sᴛᴀʀ
I feel like that's not a good reason but what do I know
☀️ ceeshine!
it's not. LNGNSNGSF
☀️ ceeshine!
retail, baby......
ɢʟᴀᴍ★sᴛᴀʀ
retail,,,,,,,,,,,
☀️ ceeshine!
Oh My God I Hate Shoveling
☀️ ceeshine!
i hate shoveling and i hate having a job that causes me to need to shovel bc i have to leave the house so damn much
Silvie
I HATE SHOVELING!!!!!!
Silvie
do you have salt for your sidewalk at least. that helps some
☀️ ceeshine!
yeah, i typically salt right after i come home from work if i know it's gonna snow so i did that yesterday morning after my shift
☀️ ceeshine!
the problem today was not actually the road or sidewalk, which had mostly melted clear by the time i got out there. the problem was the 4 inches of snow i had to shove off my car and then accordingly shovel out of my parking space
☀️ ceeshine!
i am so fucking tired of going to and being at work bro
☀️ ceeshine!
i felt so ill last night and my whole body feels like it's been flattened by a steamroller. almost as if i busted my ass 6 nights in a row or something
☀️ ceeshine!
finally... finally an actual fucking WEEKEND
☀️ ceeshine!
which is going to be a little busy regardless bc valentine's weekend plans with my partner but. holy shit i need these days off I'm so sick of being at work that my performance is suffering LMFAO
☀️ ceeshine!
and my skin is so angry truly feels like this eczema flare-up is never going to go away
☀️ ceeshine!
the rumination has been So Fucking Bad lately... ugh
☀️ ceeshine!
I really hope I can manage to put last year's awful Valentine's day debacle out of my head and enjoy today
Fiery Grump
Fiery Grump
I hope you are able to enjoy today cee :c
☀️ ceeshine!
thank you i appreciate it
☀️ ceeshine!
I'M SURE I WILL just... ough... my brain has been such a bad place to live in
☀️ ceeshine!
retail sucks but I did get paid to eat a big breakfast today so I'm glad I work at the company I do if I must do retail
☀️ ceeshine!
☀️ ceeshine!
rough night emotionally and tummily
☀️ ceeshine!
just want to be off work so I can snuggle my partner... wah
☀️ ceeshine!
I am goign to have so fucking much to talk about in therapy on Wednesday it's actually incredible
ɢʟᴀᴍ★sᴛᴀʀ
uh oh sisters
☀️ ceeshine!
UH OH SISTERS INDEED
☀️ ceeshine!
friendship blowup with massive ripple effects across the social circle. finally confiding in some other folks about some very difficult personal stuff i have been dealing with. finally making an appointment with a psychiatrist
ɢʟᴀᴍ★sᴛᴀʀ
oh no not another friendship blowup x_x i feel like so many social circles are cursed in the last few years and it SUCKS
ɢʟᴀᴍ★sᴛᴀʀ
tightly squeezes yr hand
☀️ ceeshine!
this one was pretty inevitable tbh. it is the Problem Person i have spoken of that is in a lot of our tabletop games who has been real on their DWRP (derogatory) shit in them
dead characters
ɢʟᴀᴍ★sᴛᴀʀ
oh,,, yeah i remember.
ɢʟᴀᴍ★sᴛᴀʀ
well. at least its done but jesus
☀️ ceeshine!
"done",,, we are still in a bit of limbo discussing what to do about the tabletop spaces they're still in, since they were only formally removed from the spaces that the person who cut them off owns
☀️ ceeshine!
those discussions have been most of my day today LOL
ɢʟᴀᴍ★sᴛᴀʀ
oh my god,,,,,,,,,,,,,, IM SORRY
☀️ ceeshine!
🎵life is a nightmare🎵
ɢʟᴀᴍ★sᴛᴀʀ
sure is.........................
Fiery Grump
ᴊᴀᴄᴋᴘᴏᴛ
oh I know this drama
ᴊᴀᴄᴋᴘᴏᴛ
I also have contact with this person and am quietly screaming because I know The Tea, but technically shouldn't since I'm not in those particular circles
ᴊᴀᴄᴋᴘᴏᴛ
and the most I can say is I'm so sorry y'all are dealing with it.
ᴊᴀᴄᴋᴘᴏᴛ
I've heard about generally the whole saga and how long it's been going on for. so, it's not surprising it finally came to a head, but oml it's been a long time coming and still so much.
☀️ ceeshine!
I WAS WONDERING IF YOU'D SEE THIS CRYSTAL
☀️ ceeshine!
very sorry they are now trying to glom onto you and your social circle after finally fucking up too many times with us
☀️ ceeshine!
a few folks have been like "i've been worried about rosa since i know [problem person] has been spending a lot of time with them" and i was just like. don't worry. crystal is also a journal RP veteran, amongst other things. they will not get sucked into the bullshit. MFLKSDMHKLH
ᴊᴀᴄᴋᴘᴏᴛ
oh absolutely not LMAO
ᴊᴀᴄᴋᴘᴏᴛ
and I'm keeping an eye on their behavior overall with others, too. I won't let them start to behave that way in my community.
ᴊᴀᴄᴋᴘᴏᴛ
like, i told my source as long as they're not acting a fool in my streaming community, they're free to be there as far as i'm concerned. for one, i cannot act upon information i shouldn't technically have, but for another, i know if i catch any wind of that kind of behavior, they're having a very stern talking to from me.
ᴊᴀᴄᴋᴘᴏᴛ
i don't fuck around, and they will find out if they persist in behaviors like that! they get one warning.
☀️ ceeshine!
bless you honestly
ᴊᴀᴄᴋᴘᴏᴛ
and, like, real talk, they have been showing up in my server/hanging around whenever there have been problems with y'all's circle. so it's kinda one of those things where i've been Prepared in that sense.
ᴊᴀᴄᴋᴘᴏᴛ
like, i knew if they were ever ousted or pushed out in some capacity, it would result in them hanging out a lot more in my server.
round and round
it sucks that you have to deal with this as I have mentioned before but I appreciate the phrase "on their dwrp shit"
ɢʟᴀᴍ★sᴛᴀʀ
oh they're moving into crystals orbit?? this is prime fuck around and find out content
ɢʟᴀᴍ★sᴛᴀʀ
like Please try it (not really bc I don't wish drama on anyone but. but)
ᴊᴀᴄᴋᴘᴏᴛ
yeah, they get one warning, one talking to, and then nah. you're done. I ain't playing.
ᴊᴀᴄᴋᴘᴏᴛ
my server is small and not the most happening place, but it's got friends and community members.
ᴊᴀᴄᴋᴘᴏᴛ
I protect the peace.
ɢʟᴀᴍ★sᴛᴀʀ
yèeeeep
ɢʟᴀᴍ★sᴛᴀʀ
I didn't mean to make an accent but I held down the e key so vehemently it just happened. that's how not playing you are
ᴊᴀᴄᴋᴘᴏᴛ
correct
ᴊᴀᴄᴋᴘᴏᴛ
or I suppose
ᴊᴀᴄᴋᴘᴏᴛ
còrréct
ɢʟᴀᴍ★sᴛᴀʀ
hęll yɛs
Fiery Grump
ħëłļ ŷẽǎħ
☀️ ceeshine!
good grief sorry i have not been in here in a few days gang i have been feeling very not in my own body lately
☀️ ceeshine!
i did finally do a thing that i've been thinking about doing for a while that my therapist recommended on wednesday and it has been a huge relief though
☀️ ceeshine!
so there is that
ɢʟᴀᴍ★sᴛᴀʀ
good job dude ❤️ proud of you
☀️ ceeshine!
thank you 💖 i'm tryin... my rubestcee...
dead characters
well done!
☀️ ceeshine!
tried to knock out finding and scheduling a dermatologist appt for this eczema flare-up that has been driving me nuts for over a month now and . holy christ. how are there so many dermatologists in my area and NONE of them take my insurance
☀️ ceeshine!
i was on the phone with a very helpful rep from the insurance company for an hour while she called around (and we realized that oh, right, i would also probably need a referral but i currently HAVE NO PCP... SO THEN SHE HAD TO CALL AROUND FOR THAT........) and i have. leads but no results yet bc it's end of day
☀️ ceeshine!
☀️ ceeshine!
what if i just peel all my skin off instead that seems easier
ɢʟᴀᴍ★sᴛᴀʀ
what the fuck. unless you have the most arcane and unknowable insurance known to man, this is insane
☀️ ceeshine!
it's an MCO through my state medicaid program so like,
☀️ ceeshine!
not really? MFLDKSMGKLH
☀️ ceeshine!
like, boy, glad it is just (most likely) an eczema flareup and not something serious or i would be feeling EVEN WORSE about this series of events
ᴊᴀᴄᴋᴘᴏᴛ
the MCO part is probably what's making it so hard to find someplace even though it's medicaid :-(
☀️ ceeshine!
there is a place around here that is highly reviewed and only does direct pay so i have.......that option if my parents are willing to help me. i can also rush my ass through finding an in-network PCP that is taking appointments soon that can get me a referral and then drag my ass about 40min away to this middling-reviewed dermatologist
☀️ ceeshine!
i may also be able to get a referral or potentially even the prescription itself from an urgent care place around here if i can find one that accepts my MCO, since i don't really need a diagnosis, just the medicine... so i will delve into those options further tomorrow
☀️ ceeshine!
i simply think the way healthcare works in this country is the worst and i would like to bite whoever came up with it until they die or die again actually
☀️ ceeshine!
i also have my psychiatrist appointment tmw so i need to write down my most frequent/obtrusive symptoms of Mental Illness™ to refer to tmw before i fall asleep, since i have work tonight im so TIRED
☀️ ceeshine!
bro i need them to rotate the full-timers again so i can stop ending up in fucking baking goods i am so tired
☀️ ceeshine!
(i am there almost every Friday bc the full-timer in that aisle doesn't work Fridays and then basically every night that i need to go help someone because ? i guess they figure we work well together but I HATE BAKE... SO FUCKING MUCH)
☀️ ceeshine!
testing out the new gentle hand-wash detergent i got on my dirty work clothes... pray it will save me having to schedule laundry days every week and a half on my sparing days off
dead characters
prayer circle
☀️ ceeshine!
hand-wash experiment had mixed results but in better news: guess who has a prescription for antidepressants
☀️ ceeshine!
it'll be ready TODAY so i can probably start taking them TONIGHT?
Silvie
YIPPEE!!!!!
ɢʟᴀᴍ★sᴛᴀʀ
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
round and round
dead characters
☀️ ceeshine!
THEY'RE REAL... IM HOLDING THEM IN MY HANDS... BRAIN MEDS
☀️ ceeshine!
i am gonna wait until nighttime to take them tho bc the doc said this one often functions as like. a bit of an energy booster for a lot of people, and being a graveyard shift bitch, it would be better for me to have that boost in the evening LOL
ɢʟᴀᴍ★sᴛᴀʀ
YESSSSS ITS REAL
☀️ ceeshine!
i genuinely can't believe it
☀️ ceeshine!
after a very cloudy and windy day the sun actually came out on my drive home and i almost started weeping bc i'm very normal today
ɢʟᴀᴍ★sᴛᴀʀ
ITS LEGIT THOUGH. ITS SUCH A RELIEF
ɢʟᴀᴍ★sᴛᴀʀ
and you have had to jump thru all the hoops. I think it's a very understandable reaction
BuyMoreCrystals
HELL YEAH BRAIN MEDS
☀️ ceeshine!
anxiety trying to straight up make my heart explode tonight
☀️ ceeshine!
lotta bad rumination on the housemate situation tonight ugh
☀️ ceeshine!
Oh My God I Am So Glad To Be Horizontal
☀️ ceeshine!
i don't even feel that sleepy just. jfc the fatigue
☀️ ceeshine!
the Agues
☀️ ceeshine!
did discover that they finally did the 6(ish) month full-timer rotation so hopefully FINALLY i won't be in baking goods every goddamn friday anymore
☀️ ceeshine!
instead i will probably be in fruit & veg, which also sucks but i will take literally anything over bake
☀️ ceeshine!
I wasn't in fruit & veg
☀️ ceeshine!
god next week is going to be awful tho. my manager is gonna be out and she has me as one of the only 3 people she trusts to take over some of her duties while she's gone
☀️ ceeshine!
cursed by my eye for detail...
☀️ ceeshine!
(it's a few aisle assignments where rotation/proper dating and handling are mission critical)
☀️ ceeshine!
anyway I have a breakfast date with my boy so hopefully that will help get me through the rest of this long-ass weekend
ɢʟᴀᴍ★sᴛᴀʀ
breakfast please give cee strength
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