when I was like 8 I had a dream that my dad died and it scared me so much I was relieved in the next dream I had when I saw my dad and when I woke up I went to him and hugged him

nowadays the only dreams I have about him is that he's angry at me fuckyoudad whydoistillcareaboutyoutho

did you also have the case of physically present but emotionally absent dad that made you feel guilty for thinking hes bad because he at least was in your life and broke his back to provide for you but still hurt you and you just cannot let go

(sorry if not IMS ORRY)

I don't think so, especially because he's not even that physically present anymore

I feel bad for thinking my mother's bad though, because her parents were worse and she genuinely thinks that our relationship is normal

same here with my mom she gets so . victimising sometimes but like

its not her fault nothings her fault