Man, that's a set of tags, but uh... Disordered eating and just some stuff to get off my chest
GAY SHEEP
Man, that's a set of tags, but uh... Disordered eating and just some stuff to get off my chest
Man, that's a set of tags, but uh... Disordered eating and just some stuff to get off my chest
GAY SHEEP
I haven't been talking about it online a lot, but I've had some horrible appetite issues- worse than my sleep issues, I'd say
GAY SHEEP
I'm mostly saying that because, since Jose did something with my shoulders, I've been able to sleep for more time than before
GAY SHEEP
My nausea and appetite loss has meant that I've had trouble getting myself to eat, even if the stomach says it also hungers, going late into the day without anything or hitting a mental block
GAY SHEEP
Most days, I'm not even getting 800 calories in me, it's that kind of thing. Not strictly trying to count, but when you know how many calories are in, like, 3 things, then it's easy to estimate
GAY SHEEP
My gut feels empty, like there's a chill inside, and getting food in isn't satisfying or filing anymore
GAY SHEEP
and it's now such a chore, even figuring out food makes me want to cry. I couldn't get anything when walking through the grocery store
GAY SHEEP
Being in the presence of people gets my anxiety up now, and I feel rushed, which is hard when you're struggling to decide on food
GAY SHEEP
And the worst part of this all is that I haven't had any weight loss from this, because my metabolism was absolutely destroyed from anxiety and depression induced disordered eating (and whatever the fuck is going on with my system)
GAY SHEEP
The one thing I tried to get? It wasn't scanning, despite the barcode looking good. All the other barcodes look the same, so I gave up!
GAY SHEEP
I actually can't handle spice- well, my mouth can, but I feel the heat even more in my gut
Worser Punk 💥
oh sweetheart :<
Worser Punk 💥
maybe message Jose? since he's also a nutritionist, he may have ideas on how to get nutrients into you
GAY SHEEP
I have new protein drinks coming in that have other nutrients in them. It's just going to take a bit of time to show up
Worser Punk 💥
drinks were definitely my first thought
Worser Punk 💥
do you have an immersion blender? you could make soups drinkable
GAY SHEEP
No, and sadly, the idea of that is also really unappealing. which is one of these issues that I'm hitting a wall with. If it's unappealing, I can't bring myself to do anything towards it
Worser Punk 💥
sad ocd fistbump. I can't get myself to eat things that hit wrong either, even if they sounded good yesterday
GAY SHEEP
I mean, I have said that in general, I just have well managed ocd that isn't extreme... I'm wondering is part of this is vagus nerve issues
Worser Punk 💥
nausea will definitely make almost anything sound unappealing and ocd can exacerbate that :<
GAY SHEEP
Yeah, I've been practically living off of my reglan lately in doing my best to manage it
Worser Punk 💥
I wish I knew how to help
GAY SHEEP
It's just been a real head scratcher. I just needed to vent at this point, because the frustration makes me wanna cry
Worser Punk 💥
I bet :<
花喰み。🌸
patting you gently. i dont have advice or anything but ik how much this kinda thing blows :x i hope you can get it figured out
花喰み。🌸
how long has it been goin on?
GAY SHEEP
Oh, a good while... A few months, but even worse these past few
GAY SHEEP
Uh... well, today's a day where it looks like I'm unable to take supplements because I'm having trouble getting a meal with some fat in it in my stomach
GAY SHEEP
the frozen food is too painful to hold onto and move around right now and now I'm just too tired