never liked billie much but the glow up from dating a racist homophobic guy, to making him publicly apologize, breaking up with him and then coming out as queer is kind of iconic. not even i can deny that. maybe i'll give her music another try

honestly i feel like even as a trans bisexual man i will always connect more with sapphics and the way they experience life and relationships because there was once a little girl in me confused why my mom thought i was joking about having a crush on my neighborhood friend. like i'm 100% trans binary man and in a relationship WITH a man but i'm for the girls

and girls only if that makes sense. men still give me the ick 95% of the time and women make me feel safe and understood. there is something beautiful about getting to be trans and experiencing or understanding womanhood. i love being female. it's okay for me to be and it doesn't make me any less of a man today.

also had to get over so much internalized transphobia to accept that this is okay. it's okay for me to relate to sapphic relationships as a trans man who's been with women. sure, i may not have it as easy as cis men. but part of me is grateful i was born a girl. i think my existence is beautiful and right. i never felt like i was born in the wrong body, just

seen as someone i am not. i am not comfortable enough with myself, sure, but my body is mine and i accept that. there is nothing and no one i'd rather be than myself and the trans man i am today. i am grateful for my female AND male experiences

super random to throw this under here but this has been on my mind since i started T and realized i can just be who i am and that's okay. i don't need to hate myself or fit in a box my entire life and it's okay to be a binary man with positive feelings towards the female experience.