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[emetophobia warning] I had an absolute shitshow fuckstorm of a night last night

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1: I ate dinner, and for some reason, my visceral food aversion kicked in not long after I had finished and I just felt. primal disgust, like garbage poison is inside of me and I cant stop smelling and tasting it

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I'm guessing this is a combo of autism bullshit and also hormonal problems because I just started my placebo week of birth control the day before

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It was so bad that I had to just eat ginger candy after ginger candy while also in a hot shower with ALL THE SOAPS to try and override my sense of taste and smell

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and then ON TOP OF THAT my SIBO (gut issues) were VERY BAD and I just felt super sick, insanely bloated

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And all of this basically activated my brain on fire and I had a panic attack while also feeling like my brain was made of angry bees

𝑑𝑖𝑎𝑚𝑜𝑛𝑑 𝑑𝑢𝑠𝑡
jesus, otterbody please chill

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It just kept getting worse and worse on all fronts until my body was just like "yeah we're gonna throw up now" and I was trying to fight it but after a few hours of pacing in circles with this happening I was just like lord jesus I do not care anymore, take the wheel, let's throw up

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but then it just wouldn't happen

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I was like, completely giving in, body do whatever you want, and I just was left hanging on the edge of throwing up permanently

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I medicated the fuck out of myself with xanax and zofran and none of it was working

𝑑𝑖𝑎𝑚𝑜𝑛𝑑 𝑑𝑢𝑠𝑡
one is bad but all of that together is just... i'm sorry D:

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eventually I passed out sort of hanging off the side of my bed with a garbage can there

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and woke up this morning with my body hurting so bad like what the absolute fuck did you do to us last night

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and I'd like to say back to my body and brain that THIS IS YOUR FAULT, I DID NOT INTEND THIS IN THE SLIGHTEST

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okay I'm done


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𝑑𝑖𝑎𝑚𝑜𝑛𝑑 𝑑𝑢𝑠𝑡
: thank you for your concern either way
