so this likely comes as little surprise given my relative radio silence and the time of month it is, but i am officially dropping

i just wanted to say something rather than idle out and disappear into the mist, as i was kind of in danger of doing anyway

one: i am doing mostly okay, no real life crises have happened at the moment, my motivation to write and tag has just stayed largely evaporated and doing a hiatus didn't really help

which kind of makes sense! my motivation to write and tag has always come in waves and sometimes just absolutely cratered, and at the end of the day i think i was fooling myself that i could maintain it long enough or consistently enough to stay in a game

it's probably an adhd thing, i am guessing. my hobbies and interests come in waves, and it's not fair to be in a game where a little more consistency is needed

especially a capped came where space is at a premium. someone else should have that spot that's going to do more with it, i think

two, i am sorry to all the people this is going to disappoint or leave in a lurch. i really, really did enjoy my CR in this game and getting to befriend you all, and it sucks that this is where it ends

know that that is no reflection on any of you, this is just me realizing who i am and that just because i was cresting a hot streak writing doesn't mean i can maintain that for a full game, especially given the level of activity and involvedness that i demand from myself

which we can can argue if are healthy expectations or not but o well

feel free to unfriend this account as you see fit, honestly i have no idea if i will be using it much anyway because the FOMO and the regret are probably gonna be present for a little bit