cw: mental health, nothing terrible

Let me preface everything I'm about to say with, I am schizophrenic and aware that most of this is probably delusion coupled with confirmation bias, SO, keep that grain of salt ready for everything I'm about to say

Most of the life I can remember I've been something of an empath, like, in a weird way. "Can accurately predict which of the cars around me in traffic are about to change lanes without looking because something just feels OFF about them" way

And I say that to say I also get these weird ass feelings sometimes, and then some fucking nonsense goes on that day

like the last time I woke up feeling Weird the damn queen died

because this can't kick in for big things like fucking wars or shit, but the queen dies or Destiel turns canon, yeah, i got that

well i've woken up feeling Weird

why you gotta be struck by The Weird Feeling when I have work

I'M AT WORK RIGHT NOW TOO

IF ANOTHER MONARCH DIES WE'RE CALLING IT

I MEAN THE CURRENT ONE IS OLD ENOUGH TOO

but yeah, IDK, hopefully this is just that my meds are still readjusting after I was off them for my antibiotics and everything is fine, but I'm also saying I wanted to note it just in case

If you get to come back here later and yell TOLD YOU SO!!! I will lose it

(and if nothing does happen I have proof for my deranged brain to point at and go "see, you didn't call anything")

I'M HOPING TO BE PROVEN WRONG, I'D ACTUALLY REALLY LIKE THAT

I CANNOT THINK OF A MORE USELESS SUPERPOWER THAN "ACCURATELY PREDICT DEATH OF THE MONARCHY"

klhkjda

I'd also prefer you be proven wrong but hdjsaa

if Charles kicks it today i'm going to just. go ahead and form the Lame X-Men

go find that dude who sticks spoons to himself or something

you can have my mild durability and weirdly appropriate music to the conversation coming up on shuffle/on the radio in the car

you're in, that's better than my thing

I used to be able to effortlessly open plastic grocery bags that were stuck together (WITHOUT grossly licking my finger, people!!) but not anymore... I aged out of lame magical girlness

i usually get that by getting them between my hands and just rubbing real fast, like if you're warming your hands up after coming in from the cold

Yeah, that's what I gotta do now