[rl/family] not really drama but neg stuff

I am trying to figure out wtf is going on because???

My mom's mom's side of the family includes all the aunts and uncles I know.

They are all french canadian, very white, live literally on top of each other in two multi family homes

I'm half Puerto Rican and my mom left home literally at 18

she joined the military and never stopped moving and none of them have ever moved a day in their lives and so going back for holidays was always Weird

No one really knew us, and we didn't look like anyone else, so idk I never got attached much

And so we have always been distant, I have literally never had a concept of 'family' like other people might, just a general vague annoyance at having to interact with people who only cared enough to be polite

it is whatever. I got used to it. I don't love it but I can't redo my childhood

But now I'm 34 and suddenly my aunt and uncle are making vague motions at attempting to bridge the gap and I could not understand why less

I'm single and poor and queer, why bother me NOW

it's almost more of a pain because it is only vague motions at it. Nothing is being addressed, they're not attempting to get to know me better

what do you WANT

uh... okay, try harder, aunt and uncle

just because they realized after 3 and a half decades that there was a whole other family member they could have had in their lives this whole time, doesn't mean you have to stop what you're doing to cater to them, gosh

how awkward...

it's SO AWKWARD

That does sound awkward.

they might be realizing their own mortality creeping up on them and trying to make motions that they can feel self-satisfied about

that's the only thing I can think of, but I'm still like. Eh.