ughhh I think I just found a new pb for a muse I'm trying not to revive edit: this has turned into a plurk of me lamenting feeling creatively inspired, someone please smack sense into me, thx
plenty of other RP things I could be doing but noooo, I have to get a wild hair and the next thing I know I'm on tumblr looking through pics and going "oh no she does kind of have the right vibe"
entirely unrelated to this particular muse, but the creative corner of my brain must really feel a need to make up for lost time or something. it needs to stop giving me new ideas and let me focus on what I have in front of me lol
corral them into a doc you can throw darts at occasionally when you need something kjsdfhkj this is the bestworst problem to have though, but I love this for you
I'm gonna make this journal and halfway set it up and then never actually do anything with it, just gonna call it now and save myself the trouble of getting any ideas
I think my brain hit on a random character who ticks a lot of my boxes and I didn't realize it because idek the last time I thought about this media, and that's why now it's weasled in and here I am at... fuck, I have got to go to bed, I've got a stupid meeting I have to be on camera for tomorrow ;_;
where's that Drake meme: - top panel would be "character you've been writing for almost 5 yrs and know a million things for" - bottom panel would be "character you've never before considered writing, from media consumed 5+ yrs ago, who suddenly is in your head like the urge has always been there"
the last time I had a random urge and thought "hm this looks like a fun challenge to take on" it resulted in Brianna and accumulating more Star Wars knowledge than I could ever possibly need lol
I will say that I think part of all this "what if" muse nonsense I'm suddenly dealing with is in part because of being in less of a "omg I need to know every useless fact about this character/canon before I can attempt them" (memes) mindset and instead "okay how would they deal with this situation/world and adapt" (neon)
and I'm, for once, giving myself some slack to not know absolutely everything? assuming I didn't just jinx myself and grind all those shenanigans to a halt
but, I mean. there was a time where I definitely didn't demand I become an expert on a thing before attempting a character. not really sure when exactly I went away from that and latched onto impossible standards
sure I haven't read the books in ages or written her in like 4 yrs really, but when I was into those books I loved them and was super familiar with the world and riffed off those concepts in countless original characters, so some of that is just. engraved in my brain like some Star Wars shit is that I can remember at a moment's notice
edit: this has turned into a plurk of me lamenting feeling creatively inspired, someone please smack sense into me, thx
- top panel would be "character you've been writing for almost 5 yrs and know a million things for"
- bottom panel would be "character you've never before considered writing, from media consumed 5+ yrs ago, who suddenly is in your head like the urge has always been there"
assuming I didn't just jinx myself and grind all those shenanigans to a halt
maybe not forcing myself to scramble to become an expert will let me have more fun?