[CW: Depression? Disordered eating]

It's a vicious cycle. My depression makes me not want to really do much of anything at all

It's why I haven't called any doctors to get tested for depression and get anti depressants..

It's caused me to lose like 98% of my ability to taste and im tired of existing right now.

I don't wanna really eat anything if I can't even enjoy it anymore.

I'm fucking miserable.

I had mostly needed to vent before I went to bed. Sorry you guys had to see that ;;

Sometimes it’s good to vent before exploding like a soda bottle. That’s why Venti goes bard

:: sends love at::

This was me about ADHD for so long...sometimes you need an extra source of motivation.

E.S. Levi : this is exactly true

I want to update that my roommate has made it non negotiable that I have to call the doctor on Monday morning.

Good, setting a firm 'I WILL do this at X time, whether I feel like it or not' deadline helps.

It's what got me on the phone with a psych office.

I just hope it helps ;;

It might take some work to find the right meds, but they really can be a big help!

^^^ echoing this. If they give you meds, and they feel wrong in any way! Please inform them!

i will! i'm terrified but i know i need to do something. i dont wanna keep living like this.

Some people get lucky! It only took me two tries to find the right antidepressant, and the only problem with the first one was that it upset my stomach too much.

2 tries for my sis. The first one gave her weight .-.

i hope i dont get that one

i already have weight issues

Sorry I don’t mean to make your worry, just this one had a very slim chance of that and my sis happened to be the lucky one. They even said it was rare! That’s why I’m saying to check yourself and make sure it works for you. Any uncomfort follow up with them.

Do, however, expect an adjustment period where you're just...Really Sleepy.

okay! i will keep this in mind and try to update as i go through this situation

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