[venting] i don't really want solutions i just want to scream

i slept like absolute shit last night, for one thing

and starting last night my internet has been on the fritz

it seems like it's just on my computer, though

it refuses to stay connected to the internet and i am about to cry

i tried ripping the audio off my white noise youtube vid so i could listen to it offline but it kept stopping for whatever reason and waking me up

i am tired i am in pain and i am so fucking frustrated and angry right now i am going to throw something

like literally actually screaming and crying right now

i'm just tired. i'm so fucking tired and i have been tired for a year? two years? i'm so beyond burnt out and every little thing that goes wrong is just. another axe to the head at this point

i'm tired of being sick and in pain, i'm tired of not being able to do any of the shit i want to do, i'm tired of trying to make shit work when it won't. i'm done. i'm so done.

also like. my parents keep asking if i’m feeling better which idk how to answer? no, i am not, because that’s how chronic pain works??