
vampiricist
[health, cw: cancer talk] absolutely terrified for my appointment tomorrow, rambling about health worries ITP

vampiricist
i mean, i am worried that the doctor will be like "just lose some weight and you'll be fine" that's also a concern ngl but like

vampiricist
idk i lost my grandma to ovarian cancer and my mom's struggling with cancer right now so i'm just really fucking anxious about that

vampiricist
(i am adopted so their medical history isn't really relevant to me but just having gone through that sort of thing makes me really scared that i'll be next)

vampiricist
and like. i think what makes it hardest rn is that i don't actually know what an ideal outcome would be?

vampiricist
like i want to know what's going on with this bullshit, obviously. but i don't really know anything beyond that

vampiricist
i'm scared i might need surgery, or the cancer thing, but also that it might not be anything that i can actually do about it and i just have to deal with this pain for the rest of forever

vampiricist
i had a friend with endometriosis and she'd go into surgery every few years so they could clear stuff out but then it'd just come back, so i don't


vampiricist
i don't think there is an easy, fast solution to this and i hate that

broken 🗲 fuse
if it helps. i have endo and can talk to you about it

broken 🗲 fuse
and my sister dealt with ovarian cancer

vampiricist
it doesn't really, i'm gonna be honest. this isn't a thing that anyone can help with

TifanyValentine
i'm sorry, i hope whatever they come back with is some treatable and manageable and not cancer. it's scary not knowing, but you're doing the right thing going to get looked at

vampiricist
i've had endo for twelve years now but it's not progressed to the point of needing surgery. or, rather -- surgery was offered but it wasn't like. i didn't have anything that showed up on the ultrasound so i declined

vampiricist
thank you, yeah. it's better than not knowing and just being in pain all the time

vampiricist
broken 🗲 fuse
: sorry, i'm not meaning to be short, but it's really not something anyone can help with, like i said.

vampiricist
and i don't really want anyone to, i just am really upset about this and needed to get it off my chest

broken 🗲 fuse
hugs

broken 🗲 fuse
understandable

Vincent Gogh
hoping the best


vampiricist
god i've been trying to sleep but i hurt too fucking much and i've had like two panic attacks this evening, everything is awful

TifanyValentine
I'm so sorry, this has to be so rough to try to sleep through

goɗ of ѕhaɗe°
I hope you get good news tomorrow


vampiricist
i hope so too, thank you dears


witch people
Crossing all the things for you


Vincent Gogh
