p/peypxf

vampiricist

@wherethefigslie

Tue, Oct 10, 2023 3:01 PM

[health, cw: cancer talk] absolutely terrified for my appointment tomorrow, rambling about health worries ITP

vampiricist

@wherethefigslie

Tue, Oct 10, 2023 3:02 PM

i mean, i am worried that the doctor will be like "just lose some weight and you'll be fine" that's also a concern ngl but like

vampiricist

@wherethefigslie

Tue, Oct 10, 2023 3:03 PM

idk i lost my grandma to ovarian cancer and my mom's struggling with cancer right now so i'm just really fucking anxious about that

vampiricist

@wherethefigslie

Tue, Oct 10, 2023 3:03 PM

(i am adopted so their medical history isn't really relevant to me but just having gone through that sort of thing makes me really scared that i'll be next)

vampiricist

@wherethefigslie

Tue, Oct 10, 2023 3:04 PM

and like. i think what makes it hardest rn is that i don't actually know what an ideal outcome would be?

vampiricist

@wherethefigslie

Tue, Oct 10, 2023 3:04 PM

like i want to know what's going on with this bullshit, obviously. but i don't really know anything beyond that

vampiricist

@wherethefigslie

Tue, Oct 10, 2023 3:05 PM

i'm scared i might need surgery, or the cancer thing, but also that it might not be anything that i can actually do about it and i just have to deal with this pain for the rest of forever

vampiricist

@wherethefigslie

Tue, Oct 10, 2023 3:06 PM

i had a friend with endometriosis and she'd go into surgery every few years so they could clear stuff out but then it'd just come back, so i don't

vampiricist

@wherethefigslie

Tue, Oct 10, 2023 3:06 PM

i don't think there is an easy, fast solution to this and i hate that

broken 🗲 fuse

@vongolan

Tue, Oct 10, 2023 3:07 PM

if it helps. i have endo and can talk to you about it

broken 🗲 fuse

@vongolan

Tue, Oct 10, 2023 3:07 PM

and my sister dealt with ovarian cancer

vampiricist

@wherethefigslie

Tue, Oct 10, 2023 3:08 PM

it doesn't really, i'm gonna be honest. this isn't a thing that anyone can help with

TifanyValentine

@queenoftheimps

Tue, Oct 10, 2023 3:09 PM

i'm sorry, i hope whatever they come back with is some treatable and manageable and not cancer. it's scary not knowing, but you're doing the right thing going to get looked at

vampiricist

@wherethefigslie

Tue, Oct 10, 2023 3:09 PM

i've had endo for twelve years now but it's not progressed to the point of needing surgery. or, rather -- surgery was offered but it wasn't like. i didn't have anything that showed up on the ultrasound so i declined

vampiricist

@wherethefigslie

Tue, Oct 10, 2023 3:14 PM

thank you, yeah. it's better than not knowing and just being in pain all the time

vampiricist

@wherethefigslie

Tue, Oct 10, 2023 3:17 PM

broken 🗲 fuse : sorry, i'm not meaning to be short, but it's really not something anyone can help with, like i said.

vampiricist

@wherethefigslie

Tue, Oct 10, 2023 3:18 PM

and i don't really want anyone to, i just am really upset about this and needed to get it off my chest