So the fear that is important to Lestat is all about security, feeling like he can make a home, a family, a life for himself that will last, that it's REAL. Tangible. He's been sacrificed on the altar of someone else's needs, and in some way feels like he set himself up for it, but the fear is being brought out because he's finally doing some evaluation,
finally trying to find out what's important to him, what matters, and has the time and the bandwidth and is in the right space to examine those things without distraction. The root of the fear is that it's all going to go to shit. Not that he's not going to survive it again but that he'll end up on the ground with daggers in his back needing to star
this fear could lead him to doing something childish, to trying to run away from his problems, or even run away from his solutions, thinking that 'moving' will ever change what's inside his heart when all it does is leave him more stuck. A new place isn't the fix for this, even if his fears might take him there.
Second, I would like to draw your attention to the well dressed man at the top who absolutely could be Hannibal Lector, who is clearly a vampire who feeds on people, who is in the spot of 'the most important fear for you at the moment' I... this LITERALLY flew out of the deck while I was shuffling
but it may also be less literally someone who is able to be a master of relationships, of his work space, of the areas where he chooses to interrelate with others. He feels powerless in that arena, like someone else is controlling things.
What brought it out is... well, the Hermit. That could be his examination of his situation at the moment and his consideration of the facts in conjunction with that or it could just be the ways in which he isolates himself. It could be how the knowledge of the Hermit can never grow or change, only deepen, and how sometimes that means
The root of it is the Knight of Cups, a 'classic romantic', someone he thinks of as an angel, but also someone who maybe needs to look at themselves more, be more aware of their emotional depts in a more meaningful way since they might have a tendency to think they already know.
Where this is all going to lead is the rx Nine of Cups, the wish card but reversed, and that says that everything he wants is not going to happen. Now, I also happen to read rx cards as a 'prescription' to go back and learn the lesson again from before, so it's almost like an emphatic 8 of cups. There are things you need to walk away from, Will
abandoning what you think is the plan, moving on, genuinely stepping away from what you were so convinced was the right way. It might be that this isn't what you wanted, or that this energy is blocked and you're not ready for it YET and still have lessons left to learn before you can claim that energy.
This makes so much sense, especially in the context that Will is very scared of how much of Hannibal he has internalized, during their whole period of 'blurring together'.
"It could be how the knowledge of the Hermit can never grow or change, only deepen" Yeah, Will doesn't want more knowledge, he's good. So yeah, he'd be the Hermit, bringing it out.
And the Knight of Cups- "The root of it is the Knight of Cups, a 'classic romantic', someone he thinks of as an angel, but also someone who maybe needs to look at themselves more" this is the way he thinks of Malcolm,
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And also the reason he might be scared of any of this.
Annnd he doesn't have a plan at all for if Hannibal shows up or if Will has too much of Hannibal in him, so....maybe go back to the drawing board there, Will.
On the one hand: he’s been in therapy since he was 11 and has read, written and reread the book on himself but at the same time... yeah. There are things he needs to examine more and Will tends to see them.
But also he can reveal them to Malcolm in ways that don’t make him defensive. But these things are the things that make him maybe ill-advisably confident in Will’s goodness even when Will tells him not to be >.>
The fear that's most important right now is the 5 of pentacles: being left out in the cold, not being a part, feeling too separate and from the outside looking in.
What's brought this fear to consciousness is the eight of pentacles, continued effort, getting closer and closer to what you want. There's something that she's aiming for that she can't quite find and she doesn't see the progress she's made when that fear is louder.
The root of the fear is that nine of wands, which makes someone face the world with being prepared to fight, fatigue, and never quite relaxing. not defensive, exactly, but always being ready to be hurt.
and where it can lead is to believing that the only way to fix it is to move, to leave. But I will say that the six of swords is about traveling WITH someone if you're willing to see them.
the pentacles being the majority say that there are tangible parts to this problem, it's not all in her head, there are issues that are real and physical to it