it's a liver problem now for my grandda and not a kidney one

this is after the heart attack and his lung problem. so far his lungs are fine daw rn.

tiring day.

the hospital has always been draining for me ever since i was a nurse student some years back.

....and I'm contemplating going back to my nursing course and finishing it... 🥲🙃💀

....the way I'm a sadist and wanna punish myself by planning, once again, to be this when I gave it up last time, like a decade back or do kay stressful kaajo. maternal and child nursing stressed me out especially the ob ward rotation sa jr borja hospital diri cdo. 🥲🙃

it's either this or mag OT kay mas duol sa spec educ na nahuman nako (undergrad course).

I think your decision-making should be dependent on what you can stomach doing long-term. Ibang klase ang kaya ng nurses. Praying for discernment for you and the continued improvement of your granddad's health.

k, if the hosp envt is draining you then a career in allied health may not be for you. but then, what is compelling you to go back? there may be something there.

Q Tsuki-Neko🌙😼 : my family's thing is hospital work. I can deviate and I've tried soo hard to keep away but I still have the nagging feeling hospital work just like theirs is for me.
i was originally groomed by my dad to be a doc like him and my bro. this came before my bro 11 years after my 'rents had me.

Pusa-Cat! : nursing is super taxing, yep. i burnt out at around 18-19 yo doing maternal and child nursing but like...seeing my cousin go thru the same things but kinda different (years apart kami sa xu nursing so iba na curriculum nila rn) and I feel like...I can go back and be better at it now compared to before.
med or health care related stuff, i feel-

Pusa-Cat! : ....like, has always been my calling. i spend too much time in hospitals thanks to my dad and once upon a time, my mom who's originally a med tech before doing admin/sec work for the med school dito my dad and bro attended and graduated from...
i know nothing else besides the hospitals and school. 🥲😅

Pusa-Cat! : it's like...I feel i'm more mature now to take it on again & I do want to go abroad naman as a nurse or something. nursing seems the fastest tho I'm considering occupational therapy din (finished sped instead of nursing sa undergrad anyways). my aunts & uncles on my mom's side sa Cali are mostly nurses. ....so yep...

thanks for the prayers💕

Q Tsuki-Neko🌙😼 : all my 35, now 36 years of living...all I know is science and health. looks like I just have to grunt and bear hospital work like I was unable to before. 🥺 i hope to be better at it should I, when I go back. have been thinking of the nursing course sa capitol uni/CU dito. 2nd best nursing school in cdo after xu. 🤔

Q Tsuki-Neko🌙😼 : ....and some educ/academia (spec ed after shifting from nursing and my completed undergrad) and literary studies/eng litt (graduate school, ma).