/stares at computer blankly

...I literally pulled the laptop out for the sole purpose of playing Solitaire to keep my hands occupied while listening to a podcast

and while part of me sort of wants to log on to FFXIV to do some gaming or catch up on certain things (I still haven't done the last four Pandaemonium raids, for instance), I just...

yeah

no interest

frigging lack of adhd meds

i hate this

i want to enjoy things again

or feel excited about things again

not just coast on through life

fuck, i can't even get up enough energy to do anything about this

probably just gonna either go to bed, or play the next episode of Decoding the Unknown and play more solitaire

I don't even have my usual Thursday evening distraction, because we're taking a long break after finishing up a friggin' seven year campaign in D&D

Okay, eyes finally getting blurry from sleepiness. Laptop away, finishing podcast episode, and then headed for bed.