i don't feel so good. nothing in particular is wrong i just feel depressed and lonely and i hate it. and it doesn't make it any better that i can't see myself not feeling this way anytime soon

the whole vtuber preparation thing was nice and exciting and it's a good distraction but i'm starting to just feel annoying about it. i feel like i need a long vacation and sleep even though i haven't done a single thing for three years now. and as soon as i'm not distracted enough i start thinking and overthinking and becoming depressed fuck