Hey all, sorry to jump on here to beg when i continue to be a waste on society, but in the next few days the begging bowl is coming out again. i may be a useless lump but my roommates don't deserve to be homeless.

right now i still have covid, and with weather topping over 90 I can't accept construction jobs. with all my medical issues i can't sell like. blood, and that just leaves me with graphic design and that has won me zeros of jobs. i meant it last time when i didn't post a gofundme and was just... going to accept death? but then luck kicked in and we survived.

and i'm still like. okay, this is how it goes. but people keep being like "hey plan for this thing in x months! it's gonna be great!" and the people around me keep being like "we can't just... give up, there has to be an answer" and i don't know how to tell them there is no answer

we are PROPER fucked

i need a job this month, with benefits, OR SSI to swoop in and give me benefits, OR i can get enough brain together to finish a project and it gets popular enough for me to make a living. and all of that is magical Christmas land

so. begging. again

because we keep trying, and failing to find both personal and systemic solutions to do anything beyond cling to the edge of existence.