in a way it feels like a good thing cuz I don't really feel like I've gotten to go through this stage when closing up a character's arc ever before in the past
you had such an interesting and good and well thought out evolution of yuki over time in the pvp game that really showcased a lot of facets of him that reflect on canon and also his growth in snek
I feel like I have been such a basketcase for the past however long and I'm sorry and thank u all for holding my hand thru incomprehensible basketcase hours
thinking abt the time I thought I was being shippushed and then reread the conversation and realized I sounded like I was encouraging it rather than trying to say no ,
thinking abt the time I was like 'please god finish this thread with me before x other thing happens' but not in those words and then the other person immediately went to go address x other thing and then the thread I needed to be done with didn't get finished for like over a week
thinking abt me couching 'I don't know if Yuki's feeling of safety in Salamander would do well with Leona on the team' with 'if Kalim leaves at the same time' to make it sound less like I just don't want Leona on the team and Moelle and Youji both took that to mean 'Moelle can't drop Kalim'
I've realized today also that the reason I'm so bad at like. telling people when I'm leaving is because it feels like so much social energy and the reason it feels like so much social energy is because if I tell my mom "bye I'm going" it will become "oh [STARTS A CONVERSATION]"
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