I feel so irritable today...

Morgan didn't come.
I just had to spent 2400 on my Japan flight, which I had an aneurysm just paying cause the website just straight up didn't work on my work VPN
My work environment came to a halt at one point when I desperately needed it not to
I just... sigh... I don't know what's wrong with me...

I'm not really that banged up about Morgan, but like... idk...

I think I may be falling out of gacha? I guess that's kind of a good thing but also like, I dunno if there's time for me to do anything like that. I mean, I'm still glad to be able to do something but at the same time I'm also just.. feeling so blah lately

the airline payment system not working really set me off, cause I already dragged my feet to actually get a ticket, and the price went up, so seeing chance that it might go up even further kind of brought me into a panicked state when I couldn't actually pay for it.

eventually, it worked out but... ugh... I just hate that moment where there's a raging fire inside you and it feels like there's nothing you can do beside be a raging asshole.

and who wants that?

and the work thing... sigh... It wouldn't be so irritating if it weren't for the fact we've been trying to get a fix out for a week now and only for the last couple of days does the environment I need to work decide to crap out, and like... why? why does it do that?

and iit just as mysteriously fixes itself

I guess I'm glad but I wish I had consistency...

anyway, hi to nobody. I don't think anyone really reads these plurks from me anyway. Kinna makes me wonder why I make them sometimes.

or hell, why do I try to socialize on any platform. I'm so barren and alone anyway, that like... idk... maybe it's just a good as not existing? idk

I'm so burnt out and tired

oh boy, depression wave washing over. Was wondering when it'd get here.

bad gacha just adds a smelly sock on top of any mood

Tonberry King : ty - calming down now