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Actively started applying to clinics again. If I want part time and to not make too much to loose my SSDI/Medicare, that's where I gotta look.

Have 2 interviews/working interviews at the same time. One scheduled for Friday, one scheduled for next Tuesday.
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You might say, "why don't you just work full time and get off those government programs" Yeah, that would be great if 1. I could handle it in the first place, 2. I want my paycheck to go to anything BESIDES medical bills, and 3. I can't even keep a job for a year. I can't risk losing this safety net if I go off it and get fired again.
SKELEREN
🤞🏻🤞🏻🤞🏻
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I'm trying to be optimistic but at the same time, not looking forward to getting rejected/ghosted over and over.
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At least I get to do the working interview at the same time so I don't have to dress all prissy. (I get to wear scrubs) and they don't have to waste my time twice if they don't plan on actually hiring me.
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Job hunting is truly demoralising
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It really is...
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and it's like, at this point where HAVEN'T I applied to in my region. Just gotta hope places don't remember me.
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i feel this, the job market is so senselessly cruel
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But I can drive now and have a car of my own for the time being. Which actually helps a lot
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I'm pretty sure some places in the past passed me up 'cuz I had to bus everywhere.
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Learning some things with each job I hold though. DO NOT DISCLOSE ANY SORT OF DISABILITY IN AN AT WILL STATE!
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Especially at the interview.
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Sucks, and they may ACT like they are accommodating but really they're silently checking off things you CAN'T do.
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yeah, i got fired for that
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And if you fuck up at the one thing they decide you can? That's it. They can fire you literally saying "it just isn't working out"
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Unless they admit that they fired you for your disability, you just gotta take what they said and live with it. Even if you strongly suspect what they said isn't true. unless your former employer is dumb enough to try to get $900 of unemployment back and puts their discriminatory reason on paper to the unemployment office.
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yup. i asked for a single day off when i realized id be working 11-10 days straight, 7 of them completely unpaid and i got fired the next day
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spoiler alert: it ended up costing them A LOT more than $900
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LOL.
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good
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not to mention they didn't even spell my name right in their letter
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lmao
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See, I suspected it, because the issue came up and they immediately fired me the next day with the 'ol "It's not working out" and there really was nothing I could do about it until I got a case summons from the Courthouse and read their 'evidence' I literally choked. Sadly, they had less than 15 employees so the EEOC couldn't get involved. Just state laws.
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It would have been a lot more high profile/settled for more if it was able to go to the Federal level.
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But yeah, I'd be ecstatic if I got one of these so I didn't have to go through it again.
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HONESTLY THOUGH... i understand you so well
Exacerangutan
......yeah i'd hope anyone on your timeline would know better than to think "just get a full time job" like just saying that makes it so
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literally. people can be so cruel
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idk I still feel bad about having to rely on government aid in the first place. but that could also be what politics tells me lol
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absolutely politics lying to you
TENtacle :3c
hey best of luck with the job interviews! politics is lying to you re: govt aid; if it wasn't for govt aid, my family would have struggled much more when i was growing up, due to us not really having an income other than govt aid.
Exacerangutan
100% politics lying
SKELEREN
yeah there is nothing wrong with needing govt aid. it is literally society's job to take care of people. social nets are there to help people
Exacerangutan
collectively helping one another survive and thrive is the foundation of civilization
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^^^
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thanks guys. you made me feel better about it. Really the main thing I'm afraid of losing is my insurance. I literally have to have an internal medicine doctor to wrangle all of them.
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Even without medicaid, Medicare covers 80% and I have an advantage plan that I have no co-pays for anything including meds as long as they're in network.
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If I had to pay this out of pocket I'd be bankrupt. not to mention, from what I've seen, most private insurance, you gotta pay a certain amount before they'll cover shit!
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as of right now and even when I'm working as long as I stay under a certain amount of income, medicaid pays my Medicare premium which would normally be 100-something a month
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I really need to get a new job though. Right now partner is spotting me the money to pay my bills over what I am able to pay myself with my SSDI, which is an over 500 short.
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Not to mention, and again, this could be politics talking, but at least I'm trying to be a productive member of society and trying to work. I hate not doing it because I almost feel like I have no purpose
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This got my mental health in a lot of trouble in the past including multiple hospitalizations. Thankfully, I've stayed out of the hospital since 2017!
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Oh, also partner's mom is being extremely understanding and not charging me rent while I don't have a job (and hopefully still when I gotta pay partner back. though idk if she's even gonna make me)
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Still pissed I was literally 80 hours short of qualifying for unemployment. You gotta have 680 over a year and they do it in like, quarters or something
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anyway, thanks for the well-wishes guys!
Exacerangutan
honestly, wanting to do productive things is perfectly natural; the political nonsense is the idea that nobody will do productive work unless on pain of death by starvation/exposure/untreated medical conditions
Exacerangutan
only sociopaths and people so wealthy it impairs their social awareness are inclined to actually just do nothing, they just project it onto everyone else
Exacerangutan
someone legit wanting to do nothing, in an otherwise normal person, is a sign of mental illness (e.g. depression, burnout, etc) that should be treated (which is not just kind but actually useful), not stigmatized (which is neither)
starfighter
Oh shit, medicaid can pay medicare premiums? Dang, I'll have to read up on that.
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Make that 3 interviews now lol. Just got a call and passed the phone interview, so got an in person Monday
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starfighter : might depend on your state.
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lol it helps that I'm overly friendly right now 'cuz I'm high off painkillers
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This one's complicated. I gotta go through 3 more
starfighter
Yeah everything depends on state and income. Congrats on all the interviews too!
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and so far I've been lucky. They've all let me wear scrubs. otherwise I have to go shopping for interview clothes. Ironically because when my car was towed after my accident, the tow truck company stole all the stuff in my car, including my interview clothes.
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I really liked that blazer too
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they literally stole everything, from my dash cam (which technically had evidence of the accident) to my toll lane pass, to my freaking box of tissues!
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I also had a pair of scrubs
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but ofc there was nothing I could do short of taking them to small claims court. and it wasn't worth that. Filed a police report and the police didn't do shit.
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AND THEN they fucking got into a fight with the other tow truck company that was taking my car to the body shop and ended up smashing the whole back of the car into a forklift. So that pushed the repair cost over the value making my car get totalled
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which then counted as another accident on my record making my freaking insurance payment go up to 380.18 a month!
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Since I'm still a new driver, have been driving less than 5 years, I don't qualify for a lot of insurances
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So between my car 581.80 and insurance 380.18 that's almost all of my SSDI check.
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And just to say how shitty this insurance plan is, it doesn't even offer roadside assistance. I have onstar to get any sort of roadside assistance.
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Probably the only good thing is the deductible if I get into an accident (God I hope not!) is only 500
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Thank God I got a Chevy that has onstar built in.
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I'm rambling 'cuz I'm high lol
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and now I've taken dilaudid with adderall... probably not a good mix
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Make that 2 more interviews. Like I said, I look really good on paper.. I just suck balls at interviews
Exacerangutan
...that... is wildly out of bounds on what insurance should cost, especially when it includes basically no actual support and blames you for someone else being irresponsible
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The problem is... as a new driver I made some mistakes (because apparently in my lessons they failed to tell me you're supposed to yield to oncoming traffic on a solid green light. I thought green means go lol) Anyway, I was in 2 accidents for this same thing (I've learned my lesson!) and with each accident I got a ticket.
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So that's 3 accidents (including the tow truck company one) and 2 tickets.
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Needless to say, some insurances won't take me at all and a lot of others were charging 500+ premiums. I was actually lucky to find this Allstate plan. It's not a typical one offered. It's for high risk drivers. My old one was National General and they were gonna raise my rate to 500+
Exacerangutan
oof oof...
Exacerangutan
sounds to me like instead of tagging you they should be investigating that driving school's accreditation
Exacerangutan
...tbh "yield on solid green" sounds like a very weird traffic light scenario... like where you get a traffic light coming in from a side street, but the main road doesn't get a traffic light or smth
Exacerangutan
...or do you mean yield on left turns specifically?
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when you don't have an arrow for left turn, yeah
Exacerangutan
ahhhh okay yeah that uhh... that's a hell of a thing to leave out of training.
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