i'm still exhausted and Sad, still have 3-weeks-old replies i'm working on LMAO, but i at least did a little bit of writing over the weekend so i'm feeling a bit better and brain is starting to maybe work
i have basically no plans for Shoka and ABSOLUTELY no plans specific to fourth wall...this month i'm just going to be trying to focus on giving Lusamine another shot
continuing my favorite trend of forcing her into increasingly wacky and undignified situations, she is going to wake up from her month-long coma in one of the drawers at the morgue. thanks Ianthe
thanks to March memory event, she now has some Gladion Memories that will HOPEFULLY force her toward some of the actual development i've been wanting to push her toward for like.....a while now
i'm seeing that the party is on the 6th and i was planning on having her wake up on the 1st to avoid too much overlap with new arrivals/fourth wall nonsense...but i'll think about it if brain allows slfk;jklh
i think it's dumb but also kind of funny how it's gotten to be way more common to see my Lusamine distressed/confused/addled in some way than it is to see her as her prim, confident self...it's like ALL i've written for her this year
more of the same post-coma too because she's going to be sitting on Memory Bullshit (Mohn memories, Nihilego memories, Gladion memories) and also Jodariel (her usual go-to for comfort) is gone 😔
beyond morgue shenanigans, i will probably just try to ease back into writing her with one or two network posts...give HER an opportunity to be cyberbullied for a change
second idea: basically just depressionposting FKLJ:LKH.....dearest internet, why is it that this world once held such promise for me, but now ALL IT DOES is remind me of ALL THAT I HAVE SUFFERED
distantly imagining gladion fucking. climbing trees for three days. missing this. coming back and opening his laptop to see whatever the hell has transpired
she'll use one of her alternate accounts but they are first of all not even subtly named...and secondly there's only so many people on the network who compose their messages either like professional emails or overwrought poetry
i think he might be approaching a place to try to Do Something(????????) about it that's not dire and poorly advised. not sure. would reassess. "do something" might just be "2am texting beat hey what the hell is going on"
she will meanwhile be.....VERY SLOWLY grappling with her increasing guilt. which will make her at least more amenable to interacting with Gladion. Lusamine i am BEGGING you to talk to your son in a......well "decent" is a stretch so let's just say "less weird" way
if he tries to Deal With Things directly he will become stupid and his mother will also become stupid so maybe he can like. try to find her a (WELL ADJUSTED!!!!!!!!!) friend. without her or them knowing. or something. maybe???????
yes i know i'm important but why are you throwing a party for meher: PLEASE SAY SIKE