imagine having anxiety and stress from living under a constant state of compelled obedience. couldn't be me

bc he's prospectively not going to be possessed anymore he did kind of go "wow what is it like to just get to grow up as a person without that as a constant looming core of your whole existence"

NOT IN A LIKE "THREE DAYS IS BABY SHIT" KIND OF WAY, he's sympathetic to Mouse. this is more just introspection and like... grieving the fact that he's still starting from a different 'baseline' even if he will lose the looming specter soon

his future can be 'normal' from here on but the previous years of his life will still be what they were. which is to say anxiety and stress,

wheeze

lies down on yuki

he's going through so many life changes

I'm focusing on older threads a bit more in the perhaps vain hopes that I can finish some up and then have a slightly clearer plate but I will get to team and cricketmander posts soon

yukiiii

I also wonder if I should have Yuki be more overt about gender things more often :|a cuz I think it would be fun for people to call him on it more but he is honestly kind of stealthy about it since he's not out here like GIRLS CAN FIGHT!!! or anything kind of gender things

can't*

im counting how many times shidou can call yuki "chan" before yuki ends his whole career

ftr it's not because he thinks yuki is a girl tho he's just annoyi

(also he calls sae "chan" so it's not even a disrespect thing so much as he's fucking annoyin,g)

not that i expect yuki to know that i just wanted to point it out cause i was thinking about it earlier

he's just annoying.

even Yuki actually doesn't think it's a girl association thing cuz it started after he literally kicked him in the head. he may become neurotic and revise this take later

LKMFLKDS

maybe it's just brain damage -

couldn't be yuki

couldn't be Yuki

he really did not know what to say in this conversation. because he could not figure out what the normal response to this would be.

LAUGHS

the good(?) news abt the Mochi update actually is Yuki can be vaguely less of a disaster at various other dudes now

Zwei can hold his hetero hormone and Mochi can hold his gay hormone

words are too hard today so I will not elaborate.