you know, watching star trek i think about how neat it would be to be on a starship. but then at the same time i remember the feeling i get from the stories in the magnus archives that deal with the vast as well as the sounds that have been recorded from space

i don't know why, but when i hear the sounds from space it's both so beautiful but very unsettling to me. like on a frightening level

when i was a child i used to have this fascination and need to swim out into the ocean while we were at the beach. like, really out into the ocean where i couldn't hear people anymore, the water was cooler and it was a lot more difficult to see my own legs

eventually my parents would realize i was gone and my dad would have to swim out and drag me back, but always without fail i would end up out there again

i think about how drawn i was to the ocean, but now as an adult i find myself utterly terrified of being out in the ocean. it might be because i'm more knowledgeable of what's out there and the fact that we still don't know everything about it

This is so relatable

shiny。 fascinated yet terrified, i guess this is just life