Character perception questions

Eda: 1, 7, 8

1. How aware is your character of their thought processes? Do they think about why they do what they do (however accurately)? Do they care about self-analysis?

I think it's something she used to be really bad at--not necessarily that she didn't try, but spiraled over why am I the way I am in non-productive ways. But she's improving a lot over time!

Both literally--we see her talking about how much she's changing, figuring out her past mistakes and how she should have handled things, and just generally seeming to get more introspective. (Even though there's still a lot she needs to unpack)

And in the case of the curse somehow both literally and figuratively:

ie, the owlbeast is a literal separate creature and she's gotten better at not trying to analyze its actions through the lens of thinking it was something she chose/secretly wanted to do, blame herself (although she still does it more than she should) etc.

But there's also the side of her accepting it as something that is part of her now and realising that it's a creature with feelings and trauma that lashes out because of fear/confusion/being trapped--and all of the meta level coding re: mental health and self-analysis that comes with that.

7. Does your character overcompensate for anything?

I think a lot of her behavior comes from overcompensating for her social awkwardness and self-esteem issues

she leans into being a clown partly because she genuinely likes making people laugh but partly because then she's in on the joke (be self-deprecating in a funny way before other people can make fun of you! that's how you win!)

and she leans into being intentionally mischievous partly because she's just a gremlin, but partly because that's better than admitting you were trying to help/be funny/etc etc but whatever you do tends to go Wrong

Talking about how great she is is directly compensating for the low self esteem, usually with a side of doing it in a funny way to cover her bases

also leaning into the mischief because if she can't be perfect no matter how hard she tries than she'll make it damn clear she wasn't trying

and I think overall she just feels like she has to be both On and Fine to compensate for just kinda being a mess

8. Does your character believe they're chronically lucky/unlucky? Why?

I think the version I'm playing feels chronically unlucky right now between how the last part of S2 goes and ending up in the apoc setting--but overall, I don't think she feels like she's either. She makes the best of some some genuinely awful situations and that's just Life

Lindstense Heat

I love all of this and in particular why she clowns. It's just such great insight and motivation.

Thanks! I just really love how much she seems like a bit of a joke character at first but there's so much there as they actually reveal what her deal is

and the child flashbacks are just... painfully 'neurodivergent kid Doing Her Best*

;.;

extremely smart but weird girl to feral cryptid woman with gifted kid burnout and a drinking problem pipeline

Relatable, tbh.

yeahhhhhhh

apparently neurodivergence is going to specifically be a big theme of the remaining two specials and I'm so looking forward to them

Very cool.

and now I'm just kind of amused over a review commenting on one of the flashback episodes adding nothing to the season and me just here like: it has lines that made me rethink all of her other character beats

(they're not wrong on it not advancing much plot, I just crave Things To Overanalyze

goblinjr: pinging you because I enjoy rambling about her (also feel free to pick more questions)