MooseChangerPat
[IRL/Depression/Health]
MooseChangerPat
I want to cry
Whatson
what broke
MooseChangerPat
I signed up for singing lessons in OCTOBER, and I only made the first lesson. I have missed EVERY SINGLE LESSON SINCE THEN!
MooseChangerPat
The first lesson I missed because I overslept. the second lesson I missed because I thought the lesson had been canceled, but I got the date wrong. The next two lessons I missed because they were canceled. Last week's lesson was missed because of kidney stones, and this weeks lesson?
MooseChangerPat
I thought we moved the time to 5pm, and CC had stolen my phone so I never got the text from my teacher until it was too late.
Pumpqueen Fall
I'm sorry
MooseChangerPat
I'm really fucking depressed about this, it's like middle school all over again
MooseChangerPat
I hate CFIDS SOOOOO much
Pumpqueen Fall
We'll fix it soon
Pumpqueen Fall
DId you take your meds
MooseChangerPat
and to top it off, I'm getting a migraine, and then a touch of anxiety from DWRPing
MooseChangerPat
if you mean my daily meds, yes
Pumpqueen Fall
Yes. I'll be right up
Whatson
yeegh
Leanne No
MooseChangerPat
(cozy) thank you
ChickletLARP
:: sends so much love at you::
Exacerangutan
Exacerangutan
idk if i can help in any way but i can at least say the only reaction i've had to rp with you is wanting more of it <3
MooseChangerPat
thanks, I just feel guilty that I can't give out more of it
ChickletLARP
You do what you can do. It has to be fun for you too.
MooseChangerPat
one of my greatest disappointments is how little progress I've made with my fire emblem community
ChickletLARP
How can I help?
Exacerangutan
<3
ChickletLARP
I have just recently discovered just how much work it is... >.>
Exacerangutan
for what it's worth you know i'll backtag any and all threads if there's interest, so pls don't stress on my account at least
Chris
MooseChangerPat
ChickletLARP : I'm not sure I have the rules and applications page set up, but I still need to set up setting, locations, premise, and make some minor modifications.
MooseChangerPat
a lot of this I think I have to do myself
MooseChangerPat
plus I'm starting to question whether I should do everything I was originally thinking of, like letting infinite numbers of the same characters apply
MooseChangerPat
it makes sense canonically, but people might start to complain... maybe if I forced duplicates to play as alts of some sort? Like seasonal, or letting the player that's been there longer having the option to become a resplendent version or something.
MooseChangerPat
MooseChangerPat
ChickletLARP
Yeaaaaaah
ChickletLARP
I went through a lot like this with the game I just started. If Tanks hadn't stepped up to help, I think I'd still be sobbing and sure this was never going to happen
ChickletLARP
Lesson I learned the hard way? (well one of them, anyhow) so much more fun to work on this together with someone.
MooseChangerPat
i didn't realize you started one
ChickletLARP
Also helps to have someone to sanity check you when you bounce ideas
ChickletLARP
Yeah. It... It just... kinda happened
MooseChangerPat
good for you!
Exacerangutan
i still need to kick my brain into usefulness and app to that.....
ChickletLARP
VT was closing, I was panicking ovr not having a game to be in, and I.... I just somehow thought this would be easy. Slap together some comns and a rules page and... good, right?
ChickletLARP
Tanks is an amazing amazing friend and a wonderful person.
MooseChangerPat
Sadly my partner mod is more quiet support
ChickletLARP
There was so very much more I needed to do that I just.... hadn't thought about
ChickletLARP
: small nod::
ChickletLARP
No one ever said you could only get help from one other person though
Exacerangutan
that's usually the way with creative projects... orz
MooseChangerPat
I've put together a game or two before... they just had little to no success
ChickletLARP
You have a whole group of friends. You can bounce ideas off of us. Get sanity checks.
MooseChangerPat
That's part of why I'm trying to make this game something that can appeal to everyone
ChickletLARP
I have no clue if mine will be seen to succeed by anyone else. but as far as I am concerned...

We have players who are having fun.

One of my oldest friends finally joined a group again after having too much anxiety.

Even if my game ended right now... I count it as a success.
ChickletLARP
DArling, no one can make anything that will appeal to everyone
Exacerangutan
<3
ChickletLARP
You could start selling fountain of youth water for a nickel and there will be people who will find reasons to complain about it.
MooseChangerPat
I know THAT xD
ChickletLARP
lol. Okay good. Worried me there
ChickletLARP
I kinda forgot that when I tried to make my last game before this one
MooseChangerPat
I just meant MORE people than just close friends
ChickletLARP
Why? Why not start it as a game for just close friends and let it grow if it'll grow?
MooseChangerPat
/shrug
MooseChangerPat
I get disheartened easily
ChickletLARP
Whatever you chose to do, I support you.
ChickletLARP
Me too.
ChickletLARP
:: shares tea with::
ChickletLARP
Trust me, my game... our event was supposed to drop hours ago. We're still scrambling. >.<
ChickletLARP
I woke up in a metric ton of pain today and my focus ha thus been.... garbage.
MooseChangerPat
I hear that
MooseChangerPat
/gestures to the singing lessons depression
ChickletLARP
:: nods::
ChickletLARP
But at least... not being alone makes it easier to forgive yourself, I hope?
MooseChangerPat
yeah, thank you
ChickletLARP
Good! I'm glad
ChickletLARP
You are loved. You are amazing. You got this.
ChickletLARP
(And if you wanna check out my game, you are always welcome and wanted there >.>)
Exacerangutan
<3 <3 <3
Rizu
Gnatalie
For the record, dude, I’m very proud of you
MooseChangerPat
thank you
Gnatalie
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